I Miss My Little Boy Options

[My heart Cooper]

This past week has been so awful. I sit and cry every night. I cry on the way home from work, while I'm here at home, and then at night before bed. I thought I was doing better but I just feel so awful. I miss my baby so much. I've gotten used to him not being here. I don't expect to see him anymore. But I still miss everything about him. I can't stand to look at pictures. I feel like I've taken a huge step backwards. I'm back to not being able to concentrate at work and just feeling sad all the time. I still just can't believe this has happened. And I feel like I can't let people know I still feel this bad because they expect me to have moved on by now. I don't even tell my husband how sad I am anymore. There's so much going on in my life right now and most of it is not so good. Normally, Cooper would be my rock. He brought my a sense of peace no matter what and now that is gone. I don't know how to work through these things without him.

Coopie - Mommy loves you so much. More than anything. I miss you every second of every day. You are my heart and I will never be whole without you. I pray that you are ok, wherever you are and you are not sad or lonely or afraid. I did my best to make sure you never had to feel those feelings. I pray that you don't now. I am so sorry you were alone when you passed. I would've never left you if I thought that would happen. I hope you were not afraid. Please be ok. I love you.

[wchamilton]

I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time... losing a pet is hard, especially when it's under accidental circumstances.

If I may make a suggestion, and please don't think I'm doing this to downplay what you're going through, because I am in NO WAY doing that... when my mother died in 2008 I sank into a very deep depression. I didn't even realize how bad it had gotten until my father called me and told me that he and my step-mother were worried about me. I saw my doctor who prescribed Welbutrin for me, which made a WORLD of difference in my mood and my emotions. My doctor said I most likely had a mild case of clinical depression that I had just been dealing with for quite some time and the shock of my mother's death pushed it into an almost crippling depression.

Your grief is very real and again PLEASE don't think I'm discounting or trying to downplay what you're going through, but it's something you may want to consider.

Either way, my thoughts and prayers are with you.