I Set An Appointment For You Today, My Miss Daisy Options

[AlexisMarie]

My sweet Daisy...I just read my post from 2006 when I lost my kitty Alexis...I remember looking over at you and thinking omg...I will be going through this pain again when its your turn. Well, its your turn. I went to the Dr. and made an appointment for you at the place you absolutely hate the most. Dont worry...it will be your last. You see...mommy had to make a choice today. whether to have surgery...or not. "Dogs have masses on their spleen all the time, we remove the spleen, we do it all the time, she'll be fine" they said. Well after being spayed, having knee surgery, just having bladder stones removed in Jan (and having stones again...when they checked the xray for them they found the mass) I decided this may be too much for your little 9 yr old Chihuahua body. As I stroked your hair from head to tail...I was amazed how much gray you have. Where did the time go? I guess its true what they say...time flies when your having fun. It set for this Friday at 10:00...and as each sunrise and sunset passes...and the day gets closer....I dont know where I will get the strength to take you and leave you there...never to bring you back home. It sickens me to no end. Even though I've been through this before with KittyKat....I had you next to me.. comforting me as I cried. You're such a good dog. But now I'm doing this for you...alone. Dont get scared when I'm crying....you saw me do it with KittyKat and now I'm doing it for you sweetheart. The thought of you going is breaking my heart into a million pieces. I will try to be strong...for you because thats what mommy's do. I love you so much!

[ladywolf]

Dear AlexisMarie--

I am so, so sorry for what you are having to go through this week. I know that this is one of the hardest, if not THE hardest, decisions you have ever had to make. But you are doing the right thing for your precious Daisy. She has given you major signs that she is ready to leave. I'm sorry, in a way, that you have to wait so long--the waiting is very difficult. But it does give you more time to love her to pieces, to let her know how much you care.

I'm so sorry for what you will have to go through after she has passed. Be gentle on yourself, as you ARE doing the right thing for her. Remember to breathe and eat!

Big hugs from Margi, Spiritwolf, and Leopold