I Lost My Friend Options

[sapphireluna]

Reading your posts has helped me feel better. Please hear my story.

My lovely cat Majestée passed away last night at the vet's. She had stopped eating, her liver was bad and treatment would've been very expensive with no telling if she'd properly recover. She was almost 16. Her birthday was in 3 weeks. This is the first time I had a pet die on me, (other than a hamster or turtle.)In fact, I've never had someone this close to me die at all, humans included. I knew she had to die eventually. She was getting old. But it's just so hard.

Please tell me, how did you survive through this? This is unreal. I have never cried so hard in my life. I cried so much that I ran out of tears. I was scared I was going to hyperventilate. This morning I am still crying. She wasn't there when I woke up. She wasn't there to ask for food. She won't be there to greet me when I come home. I can't imagine her not being there. She was sleeping on my bed just yesterday. She was sitting on that chair. She was lying down on that balcony. She was sitting in that corner right there. Now she's not. Not there. She's not there. This can't be true. She has been with me through everything for the past 16 years. I have lived more than half my life with her. I can't imaging anything else. I won't be hearing her funny-sounding meowing anymore. Her purring. She won't lick my hand anymore. It hurts so much, what do I do?

She's going to be incinerated along with other cats. It happened so fast. I wanted to keep her ashes but it's too late now. I don't even know what the vet does with the ashes.

I always thought I wanted to have more cats, but why have them when it's so painful when they leave? I still have another kitty with me. Now I'm scared for when he will leave me too. I have to go back to work on Monday. I don't know if I can. I feel so alone. Please help me.

Here are pictures
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v395/sap...luna/Cat/4b.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v395/sap...luna/Cat/m2.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v395/sap...luna/Cat/m3.jpg

[Myszka]

Dear Sapphireluna:

My Baby girl Myszka passed away the same day as your baby. I'm in the same boat as you Her birthday would have been 5 weeks from now. I'm so sorry for your loss because I know how unbearable this is right now. I can only hope and pray that they are at Rainbow Bridge and perhaps they met each other on the way there.


I've only been on this forum as long as you have and feel very comforted by everyone here. I cry but I know Im not alone.

I too have another cat left and worry about him to. I dont know if this will help you but this morning I went to a shelter. Not to adopt but to see all the cats that are looking for luv. I dont know if I can get a cat right now. I mean yes I can and it will help my guy at home but no because I feel I am crushing my baby girls legacy with me. but regardless the shelter helped a little