I Lost My Friend Options

[sapphireluna]

Reading your posts has helped me feel better. Please hear my story.

My lovely cat Majestée passed away last night at the vet's. She had stopped eating, her liver was bad and treatment would've been very expensive with no telling if she'd properly recover. She was almost 16. Her birthday was in 3 weeks. This is the first time I had a pet die on me, (other than a hamster or turtle.)In fact, I've never had someone this close to me die at all, humans included. I knew she had to die eventually. She was getting old. But it's just so hard.

Please tell me, how did you survive through this? This is unreal. I have never cried so hard in my life. I cried so much that I ran out of tears. I was scared I was going to hyperventilate. This morning I am still crying. She wasn't there when I woke up. She wasn't there to ask for food. She won't be there to greet me when I come home. I can't imagine her not being there. She was sleeping on my bed just yesterday. She was sitting on that chair. She was lying down on that balcony. She was sitting in that corner right there. Now she's not. Not there. She's not there. This can't be true. She has been with me through everything for the past 16 years. I have lived more than half my life with her. I can't imaging anything else. I won't be hearing her funny-sounding meowing anymore. Her purring. She won't lick my hand anymore. It hurts so much, what do I do?

She's going to be incinerated along with other cats. It happened so fast. I wanted to keep her ashes but it's too late now. I don't even know what the vet does with the ashes.

I always thought I wanted to have more cats, but why have them when it's so painful when they leave? I still have another kitty with me. Now I'm scared for when he will leave me too. I have to go back to work on Monday. I don't know if I can. I feel so alone. Please help me.

Here are pictures
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v395/sap...luna/Cat/4b.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v395/sap...luna/Cat/m2.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v395/sap...luna/Cat/m3.jpg

[moon_beam]

Hi, Sapphireluna, I do know how traumatic it is going to be for you to go back to the vet to pay for your precious Majestée. It's hard going back to the same vet - - even when it's under more "positive" circumstances with a healthy furchild just for routine care. After my Eli joined the angels it took me six months to be able to take my other furkids into the vet for their medical check ups without tears welling up in my eyes. When I took my Noah in for a check up and to get his Rabies vaccination last month I just barely made it through the visit. When we got back into the car and on the way home I broke down sobbing because it had only been 11 weeks since my beautiful Abbygayle joined the angels (see Abbygayle's Journey for more details when, if, you want to).

Just know we are here for you whenever you need us, Sapphireluna. We do understand everything that you're going through, and I'm glad you're being able to get your precious Majestée's ashes. I hope getting your Majestée's ashes will be a comfort to you. Please let us know how things went, okay?

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam