Losing My Beloved Misha Options

[MishasMom]

I'm so glad I found this forum. On Saturday I had to put my beloved Ragdoll Misha to sleep. It was the hardest decision to make. She was 15 years old. Last year she had been diagnosed with beggining stages of kidney failure. Last week she just started acting like she wasn't happy anymore. She was still eating but sleeping a lot. She also would be sitting there having trouble breathing. On Friday night she didn't want to be bothered at all. Didn't want me touching her, or cuddling, or any kind of interaction with me. During last week she bit me once or twice for no real reason. She had never done that before. I had this feeling she was telling me that she was done. She didn't enjoy life.

I took her into the vet Saturday morning. After talking to the vet he thought that she could of possibly had a stroke or seizures. There was also a chance that she could have a brain tumor. I asked if she was in any physical pain and he said no. I'm not sure if I believed that she had lost most of her muscle mass and I'm sure her little hips were rubbing up against bone. I just kept thinking we will be back in this same spot either ten days or a few months. What kind of quality of life would she have in that time. I feel that we don't just have an obligation to their physical pain but also their mental pain. So I made the decision I thought was best for her. She went quickly thank God. I did second guess myself the next day. I think that is normal. I do have a peace about it now. I believe we will see them again one day in heaven with our heavenly Father.

The hardest part for me is coming home to an empty apartment. I live alone and it is so lonely in my bed at night. For 30 years I have only had 4 months without a companion cat. I know I want to get another one just want the right timing.

Sorry for rambling on. My friends are getting tired of hearing about "it".

[Foxysmummy]

Hi MishasMom,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of Misha. I know what you mean about missing her presence, I had my dog Foxy put to sleep in March because she had bone cancer, and then on Monday my cat Frank died suddenly at home. I also know what you mean about friends not understanding, but this site is wonderful and everyone on here does understand, so get it all out, you're among friends here.

Irene

[MishasMom]

Missing Misha

The silence of the walls around me.
No echoing of meows to draw my attention.
No taps on my leg for hugs and kisses.
No head to plant sweet kisses on.
No kitty to hold in my arms and rub my face in her tummy fur.
No tail to play games with.
No more kitty conversations.
Tears come raining down.
Memories come upon me as a flash flood.
She was my sunshine.....my joy, my laughter, and my love.

Author- Karen L.

[MishasMom]

I couldn't stand to come home without having a cat. I went out and adopted another one soon after Misha's passing. It just wasn't the right time. The cat I adopted was too much to handle so I took her back to the cat rescue today. It is a no kill rescue they will keep her until they find her a home. I feel horrible. I keep doing everything wrong. I just keep crying.

I miss Misha so bad. I feel like I will never have another bond like I did with this cat. My heart seeks her out everyday.