One Week And One Day Since Midnight Died Options

[dihann]

Well it's been just over a week since my Midnight passed. I can't believe I wasn't awake when she was still alive just a short time before I got up. My son saw her at about 4:30 AM. I got up at 8:15 and just thought she was sleeping. I went to make my coffee, had it and then went to her. Once in a while she slept so no big deal. She was old, no need to jump around to greet me like she usually did in the past. So after a week of crying, crying, crying...to exhaustion...I now have awoken at about 5 am for a week. I am sorry Midnight, I wasn't there to comfort you. You looked thoughtful when I found you. I still wonder what you were thinking about when I walked over to you laying on your blankie waiting for me

You were born on March 13, 1995 at midnight, ergo your name. I had the honor of witnessing your birth at home. We found your mother wandering the neighborhood for months before we took you all in. We found her sitting about a block away so patiently in front of a home but never going in. We figured your mama, Kelly, was pregnant after a while after we finally coaxed her into our home. Proud Kelly, knowing she had another home and they not wanting her probably after finding out she was pregnant. How cruel. I couldn't believe it. We didn't plan on you and 6 brothers and sister coming into our lives. We made the commitment to Kelly and them,raised all of you and we happy when your brothers and sisters were adopted. I don't know why noone wanted you, but how could I give you away? So you and Kelly stayed and became a wonderful part of our family. Kelly passed away 3 years ago about this time at age 13 and I know how you cried when they took her away one last time. But you became as your mom before you a most protective, loving and funny girl...I will miss you guys forever. You were born in this home, and you died here, guess it can't get much better for a dog, but no matter how they go, it's horrible. Sorry for this being long, but needed to share. Thanks

[tanbuck]

Dihann, thank you for your story. It wasn't too long, don't worry. I'm sorry about Midnight. Your letter is very touching. I think it's great that she was born there as well. Not many people can say that. I know you wish you were there with her in her last moments but it sounds like it was peaceful. And there is no better way. I'm truly convinced of that after losing 2 recently and getting ready to lose another. You didn't have to make that awful decision for her or watch her wither away. I know it doesn't comfort you at all right now. And I'm so sorry. It sounds like she and her mom had a wonderful beyond wonderful life with you. They lived really long lives and only because of you.
I hope you will get some peace soon. I know you miss her and it will be hard getting used to her not being there. Please let us know how you're doing.
-Donna