Losing My Beloved Misha Options

[MishasMom]

I'm so glad I found this forum. On Saturday I had to put my beloved Ragdoll Misha to sleep. It was the hardest decision to make. She was 15 years old. Last year she had been diagnosed with beggining stages of kidney failure. Last week she just started acting like she wasn't happy anymore. She was still eating but sleeping a lot. She also would be sitting there having trouble breathing. On Friday night she didn't want to be bothered at all. Didn't want me touching her, or cuddling, or any kind of interaction with me. During last week she bit me once or twice for no real reason. She had never done that before. I had this feeling she was telling me that she was done. She didn't enjoy life.

I took her into the vet Saturday morning. After talking to the vet he thought that she could of possibly had a stroke or seizures. There was also a chance that she could have a brain tumor. I asked if she was in any physical pain and he said no. I'm not sure if I believed that she had lost most of her muscle mass and I'm sure her little hips were rubbing up against bone. I just kept thinking we will be back in this same spot either ten days or a few months. What kind of quality of life would she have in that time. I feel that we don't just have an obligation to their physical pain but also their mental pain. So I made the decision I thought was best for her. She went quickly thank God. I did second guess myself the next day. I think that is normal. I do have a peace about it now. I believe we will see them again one day in heaven with our heavenly Father.

The hardest part for me is coming home to an empty apartment. I live alone and it is so lonely in my bed at night. For 30 years I have only had 4 months without a companion cat. I know I want to get another one just want the right timing.

Sorry for rambling on. My friends are getting tired of hearing about "it".

[janika]

Dear MishasMom

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Misha. You had to let her go to release her from pain and suffering, she is now watching over you from a place where she is young and healed again. It really is so hard for us when we cannot physically see or touch are sweet Angel fur babies, but I do believe that they are always with us, just in a different form. Watch out for signs, and close your eyes and think of her dear face before going to sleep, and she will probably visit you in your dreams. I know its hard but I try and think of my Angels in a 'Happy' way at bedtime and I have been lucky to have had some lovely dreams. At first the dreams may seem worrying but I think this is our doubts and worries about 'did we do the right thing, or was it the right time'. You certainly love your Misha, that is clear to see, and you made your decision out of your love for her.
I am thinking of you and sending love to you and your precious Angel Misha