I Hope He Still Loves Me Options

[flo]

I just put my Max down Friday morning. He had diabetes and was having sesures. I couldn't let him go on living the way he was and I didn't think it right to make him live with shots and blood tests. I did wht at the time seemed right by him but now I just wish I yelled stop before the needle went in. I miss him so much and I'd do anything to have him back.
He always was there butting his head against mine to cheer me up even on his last night when I was crying over what was going to happen in the morning. How could I do that to him? I hope he still loves his mommy and wants to give me a head rub and kiss when I get to see him again. How do you know if you did right by them. I keep feeling like I took his life away. But I was just thinking of the way he was living everyday water bowl to food bowl to litter box and then repeat. In between he would calapse and no energy. I just wanted to stop his pain and give him peace. I hope he understands and is in peace. God it hurts more then anything and I miss him so very much.

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Flo
I am so sorry for your loss. Your Angel Max will always love you. I know exactly how you are feeling I put my angel max to sleep in Dec. We must beleive we did it out of love. We were putting our selfishness aside and only thinking of them. I know now it doesnt seem we did the best in our heart but if we hadnt felt that way at the time we would have never been able to make that choice. Its only afterwards that we have all these terrible feelings of guilt. We couldn't bare the thought of them suffering, and now its we cant bare to be without them. I try to tell my self would I rather see him suffer just to have him here with me or would I rather feel the pain in my heart because he is no longer with me and I would rather suffer then see him suffer. Your words sounds exactly how I felt. I also wanted to scream out to stop with the needle but there was also my heart telling me my baby will no longer suffer. Please dont be hard on yourself for your decission. You did what you felt was best for your angel Max. He will be waiting right there at the Rainbow Bridge for you with lots of kisses. Remember you did nothing to hurt him you did everything to help him.

Hugs
Anna and My Angels Max and Dozer
xoxoxo