I Hope He Still Loves Me Options

[flo]

I just put my Max down Friday morning. He had diabetes and was having sesures. I couldn't let him go on living the way he was and I didn't think it right to make him live with shots and blood tests. I did wht at the time seemed right by him but now I just wish I yelled stop before the needle went in. I miss him so much and I'd do anything to have him back.
He always was there butting his head against mine to cheer me up even on his last night when I was crying over what was going to happen in the morning. How could I do that to him? I hope he still loves his mommy and wants to give me a head rub and kiss when I get to see him again. How do you know if you did right by them. I keep feeling like I took his life away. But I was just thinking of the way he was living everyday water bowl to food bowl to litter box and then repeat. In between he would calapse and no energy. I just wanted to stop his pain and give him peace. I hope he understands and is in peace. God it hurts more then anything and I miss him so very much.

[ladywolf]

Hi Flo--

I am so so sorry for your loss of your precious little Max. There is *nothing* as painful as the passing of our fur-kids. I've lost everyone else in my entire family, many years ago, and nothing has hurt as badly as the loss of a beloved cat or dog. So I do understand how you are feeling, because I've felt it myself.

You said:I just wanted to stop his pain and give him peace. I hope he understands and is in peace...

He IS in peace now; you did stop his pain, and that was the most important thing. It sounds as if he didn't have much quality of life left anymore, and you wisely and gently decided to assist him to a more peaceful place. That decision is a terrible one that so many of us have had to make; our pets can't make the decision for themselves, so we have to do it for them. Believe me, your Max is grateful for what you decided to do...

But the loss is dreadful and I really feel for you. My Ladywolf was just diagnosed with diabetes a week ago, and insulin is saving her life right now. But since she has cancer too, that won't go on forever, and who knows which disease will start to "get her" first? I will NOT let her suffer, I absolutely will not, even if the ending of her life costs me awful suffering.

You did the right thing, but I know that it's really hard to feel that right now. In time, I hope you can come to accept it for what it was: an act of true mercy.

Much love from Margi and Ladywolf