How Do You Stop Crying?, Recent Loss Options

[Countrygirl]

I am Tina,
I was fortunate enough to speng 8 short years with my best pal BooBear. The very first night I took him home, (he had been abbandoned on a vets door) he fell right to sleep on my chest. Anytime I was upset he was there. He would greet me at the door everyday. He had to be put to sleep.

He had diabetes for one but lost control of his bowels and bladder so I believe there was more they had not found. The last day he kept hidding under the sofa something he would never do....just to nosey. When I would hold he he would latch on like he was off balance. I went to brush he with the softest brush and even that seemed to cause him pain. I made the decision but I can't sto[ second guessing myself and I can't stop crying. I come home to an empty house and an even emptier heart. I never thought it could hurt this much. I used yo yell him we would grow old together. That didn't happen and now it is just so hard. I was glad when I found this site, even though my family grieves with me they really can't feel the everyday loss. Thanks for letting me pour out my heart...I don't know what else to do with it.

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[Countrygirl]

To everybody that was there for me with their support and their kind words I have something to share.

From the moment I made the decision to have BooBear put to sleep I was second guessing myself. I had prayed many times for God to help me know I did the right thing so that I could heal. Last night about an hour after I fell asleep the worst and best thing happened. I had lets call it a dream of my BooBears death if I had not done what I did. The final moments were so vivid, the feeling, the sights, the smells...it was so bad. I woke up crying but knew from that moment on I had really don't the right thing and just in time. As the fog cleard from sleep a song played in my head...Holes in the floor of heaven...I knew.

So to anybody out there with the same questions, when you love your furbaby so much you need to trust that the connection goes beyond what others may see and you know you really, really know when they are in pain. Follow your heart.

What I saw in my dream was so horrible but such a blessing as well because I have no doubt that I sent BooBear to the Rainbow Bridge not a moment too soon. Even if it meant I could have had a few more days with him I would not have wanted the end I saw for him.. Trust in your love. Thank you again and I hope this helps someone else. This sight has been a God send. Tina (BooBear's Mom forever)