Songs That Remind You Of Your Lost Loved One Options

[KeriTiasMom]

Today I've been in a sort of softly melancholic mood...not deeply depressed...not happy. just a sort of in-between state...not numb...just a gentle sadness as if the loss of my Tia is finally becoming a permanent part of my life in my mind. In this mood I felt drawn towards certain songs, songs with certain "feel"s to them. Music has always been an integral part of my life...highlighting my happy times and punctuating my sad ones. These songs I will share here with y'all supported me today and I feel they say out loud (in words and music) how I feel about my loss. I'll include the lyrics to one of the songs. The other is in nationality (these are both from my favorite musician, Hyde, who is nationality).

Do you find any songs in particular seem to jump out at you as meaningful...that they seem to speak to you personally about your lost loved one(s) or about your feelings about that loved one? Let's share

When I feel sad but grateful to my Tia I listen to this song, "Shallow Sleep," by Hyde. This is the piano version with English lyrics. It's sad but the lyrics are so meaningful to someone who lost a loved one. Please give it a listen.
This is the link to the song and below are the lyrics:
Link to "Shallow Sleep (English, piano version)"
"Shallow Sleep" (lyrics and music by Hyde)

I just saw you
Beyond the course of time
A room that we once shared
But my memory's a haze
Forgetting what was said

I gently held out my hand
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared - I lost you over again

In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

I just saw you
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again

In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

I see you - until I wake from shallow sleep

An artist without a brush
Can't paint upon the canvas
Without you here - there is no colour
A colourless landscape

In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

I see you - shallow sleep

This song, called "Season's Call," is another one by Hyde. This one is more upbeat and reminds me of the few times (perhaps the manic upside of a manic depressive mood swing..haha) that in the midst of my grief I feel a sudden welling up of joy, of gra***ude for my Tia and for her presence in my life. As some of the English lyrics of this mostly nationality song state, "because you taught me how to love I feel I can do anything." This song is about a feeling, a sureness that there is a higher power by the feeling of inner joy and peace that the faith one has provides them. I also interpret it like this...When I think of Tia and how she has now passed on I don't always feel sad. When I look at it and step outside of my sad feelings I feel an inner peace and a sudden feeling of joy to think that somewhere, inside of me, she is still there and will never die. This is what I think of when I hear this song...my faith that Tia is still with me, only now, in her spiritual form, she will never leave me as her mortal form did.
Hyde "Seasons Call" video

Edit: I'll purposefully misspell this so you can see what I mean...every time I type Jpnese this changed it to "nationality"...in case you're wondering what that meant:)

[Lei-Lei'smom]

Leibchen's song is "My Heart Will Go On". The last time she went for a car ride with me, three days before she passed, this song came on the radio. I had never "really" listened to the lyrics before then. I glanced over at her in the passenger seat and she sat up and just gazed back at me, then laid back down and stared out the window. I knew. The gravity of her illness was still not sinking in yet, but I knew this was her song. I had to pull over as I couldn't see to drive through my tears. At times when I am feeling really down and thinking of her more often than usual, this song has come on the radio. I still have to pull over and listen, dry my eyes, glance at the empty car seat next to me, and then just quietly say "thank you Lei-Lei'".
In Nov. 2008, just before the second anniversary of her death, I had lunch at our favorite nationality restaurant. While we ate the music played, as usual , via the ceiling, piped in through speakers. The same song played over and over the ENTIRE time we were there, like it was on instant replay.... it was a lovely instrumental version of "My Heart Will Go On". How unusual to hear it during lunch for 45min. straight. I only ate half my lunch and silently cried as I remembered that last car ride. My then 21yr old son was sitting across from me and he too had full eyes and tried to avoid eye contact with me. I then recalled a fond memory of Leibchen and shared it with him, which made us smile as I dried my tears.
I got another schipperke, like Leibchen was, about 7mo after she passed, from a kennel called Heart-Throb's schipperkes. She was born on what should have been Lei-Lei's 13th birthday, so I was intrigued. I named her Echo and she is a lot like Lei... too much sometimes. Leibchen is still "my little daughter" and will always own my heart, but I share "just a little" that's left of it, with Echo. I don't think Lei-Lei would miss such a trivial amount. Echo's registered name is Heart-Throb's My Heart Will Go On...and I guess it has.
This song has meant so much to me. Thank you Lei-Lei.
Peace