Abbygayle's Journey Options

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My dear Lightning Strike Friends,
Today is a very hard day. It is Sunday and is very likely the last weekend I will have with my beautiful baby girl, Abbygayle. For those who may not already know, I started posting about my beautiful kitty daughter in the Pet Illness Forum. About 2 weeks ago she very quickly declined to not eating. Over the last 2 weeks I have had her into the vet twice on "emergency" visits where she was given subQ fluids and medication to help stimulate her appetite - - thinking at first that maybe the pain meds had suppressed her appetite. She has been on very mild pain meds since January but I know they can change the way food tastes and smells, and can make digestion quite unappealing. The last visit was Tuesday, March 9. Another vet in the practice saw her as Tuesdays are our regular vet's day off. The vet took a couple of x-rays which showed NO invasion of the Fibrosarcoma into her bones - - anywhere, and her vital organs looked well within normal limits. On Friday, March 5, Abbygayle's first "emergency" visit, her regular vet did a BUN test for kidney function which all results were well within all normal ranges.
My beautiful baby girl is not a happy camper. I am syringe feeding her to try to keep her from going into crisis so that we can have this last weekend together. But I am prepared to take her the ER vet today if she goes into seizure for some reason.
My precious Noah, Abbygayle's sibling brother, is trying his best to keep our little household together, but he will be the sole furchild survior in a household that has gone from 4 furkids to just him within a 39 month time frame. I love him dearly. He is bright and mischievous - - makes me laugh even in times of complete exasperation from his antics sometimes. Abbygayle is my baby cuddles girl. She has loved being held and cuddled since day one. Noah will let me hold him but just so long - - a typcal boy child who can tolerate mommy's "mushy stuff" just so long. Abbygayle on the other hand will let me hold her in my arms for as long as we both need a hug and cuddle. The pending reality of not being able to hold her in my arms again is just ripping apart my heart and spirit to the unbearable breaking point.
I have an appoitnment for her with her regular vet PCP tomorrow afternoon for an updated evaluation and to discuss euthanasia. I am hoping the vet can help me keep her comfortable through Wednesday afternoon so that I can take her in Wednesday evening for the procedure, bring her home to Noah, wrap her precious body, and return her to the vet on Thursday morning for cremation. I had scheduled to have Thursday off from work for a dental appointment, but I will cancel the dental appointment and still take Thursday off from work. If the vet cannot find anything definitive tomorrow that would help me better understand what has caused this sudden loss of appetite and snowballing failure, I may request that she do a necropsy before Abbygayle is cremated and returned to me.
Needless to say, my friends, I am in quite a sorrowful state. I can hardly see to type this through my tears, so I hope this makes some sense to you as you read through it. I ask that you please keep my precious Abbygayle and Noah in your thoughts and prayers, and I will let you know what happens as soon as I can. And please know each of you are in my thoughts and prayers knowing that you are carrying your own burdens of grief and sorrow.

Peace and blessings,
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[moon_beam]

Hi, Ginger, thank you again so much for your comforting thoughts and words, and all of my dear Lightning Strike friends - - everyone here in this wonderful forum. It is hard to believe that Monday, the 29th, will be exactly 4 months since Oslo joined the angels, and today is 12 days since Abbygayle went to join him. Noah has the middle name of Terrence, and the two names combined mean "Provider of Comfort and Tender / Gently Formed." He has been this way with all of his adopted siblings and his baby sister, - - and with me. He had always taken on the role of "caregiver" seeing that everyone else's emotional needs were being met, and now he and I are giving each other comforting hugs and rubs and cuddles and snuggles - - as much as my little boy can handle at any given time. I do love this little tender hearted fella very much. Now that Abbygayle no longer needs to be confined to the basement, I took the gate down from the basement stairs so that Noah can have full run of the house again, and he is usually upstairs waiting for me to come through the inside garage door when I get home from work and errands. I'm thinking that I may try to encourage him to go with me sometimes on my errands - - just to have a ride in the car and not always associating a ride in the car to a ride to the vet. And I think having him get a "change of scenery" once in awhile might also help him in his grief recovery. And I'm hoping it will help us bond even closer together, if that's possible.

Thank you again so o o much, Ginger, and please know you and everyone here in this wonderful forum are close in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam