Please...some Support For Me, Poppers, And Ladywolf, Poppers is dying, I think... Options

[ladywolf]

Oh, so suddenly, Poppers, my 15-year-old Black Labrador, just lost control of her legs (and her mind, to some degree too.). She crashed all over the kitchen a couple of days ago, and I had to carry her back to the car after an attempt at a little outdoor time yesterday. Since then, she's just been resting, and I'm just...waiting. Waiting is awful, but she seems to be pretty comfortable, has even eaten something today and drunk a lot of water, but I can tell in my bones that she is dying.

Ladywolf and Poppers have been my only "blood" family for their entire lifetimes. (I was "orphaned" myself in my thirties, and now I'm 59. I have NO other family, except for extended family of friends.) So my girls and I have really been a unit, and man, have we been through it. After losing a lot of money, I have had to live in the woods in my car for extended periods of time so that my dog and wolf would have a happy, safe place to spend their time. We've lived in Death Valley in the summer, they survived for eight days when I fell sick about four years ago and lay on the bathroom floor with no food or water for EIGHT DAYS before I was found. (No, no heroic "Lassie-style" rescue on the part of my girls--they just waited patiently for me to wake up!)

And now Poppers is on her way out, and Ladywolf is 15 too and won't be TOO long behind her, and I am bereft. These will probably be my last dogs, as I have plans to leave the country when they have lived out their lifespans.

I just needed to tell a little of the story and seek a little comfort. I am hoping that Pops, AKA "Peabody," goes gently and swiftly and withOUT veterinary intervention, which I despise. If she was in great pain, that would be another matter, but I really do think that she is pretty comfortable. Ladywolf is a bit freaked, but she'll survive. So will I--but darnnit, why does everyone have to keep leaving me in December, just in time for the "holidays?" (I haven't celebrated Christmas in many years--there have been way too many deaths in December for me to feel at all "festive.")

I'm a psychotherapist, among other things, and I know a LOT about death and grieving, but this is my own beloved Poppers, and I'm just not ready!

Thanks in advance for your support!

Ladywolf (aka Margi)

[AngelCareOne]

P. S. This is where I live ... At least in my mind ... If ya know what I'm saying ...





I had always loved that drawing by Escher. Not no more though. LOL.

More Hugs to you and Lovely Ladywolf!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[ladywolf]

P. S. This is where I live ... At least in my mind ... If ya know what I'm saying ...





I had always loved that drawing by Escher. Not no more though. LOL.

More Hugs to you and Lovely Ladywolf!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie--

"My mind is a dangerous neighborhood that I should never wander into alone" (Annie Lamott)

"The mind is a wonderful servant, but a terrible master." (Gangaji)

Boy, can I relate to all of those images. The dot bouncing around is a particularly crazy-making one. And the Escher staircases...

But where is Meunch's "The Scream?"

Hang in there, cutie. Don't give too much more than you receive!

Big Hugs--

Margi and the Wolf

[AngelCareOne]

Dottie--

"My mind is a dangerous neighborhood that I should never wander into alone" (Annie Lamott)

"The mind is a wonderful servant, but a terrible master." (Gangaji)

Boy, can I relate to all of those images. The dot bouncing around is a particularly crazy-making one. And the Escher staircases...

But where is Meunch's "The Scream?"

Hang in there, cutie. Don't give too much more than you receive!

Big Hugs--

Margi and the Wolf

"And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make". The Beatles. Composed by Paul McCartney. Credited to Lennon/McCartney. Paul McCartney was lauded as a genius for that quote while composing the lyrics for "The End."

"All are agreed as they join the stampede, you should never take more than you give" Elton John from "The Circle of Life."

But ...

"Some of us fall by the wayside.
And some of us soar to the stars.
And some of us sail through our troubles.
And some have to live with the scars."

The above is also Elton John from his song, "The Circle of Life." That entire song tells it like it is and does so beautifully.

Ummm, there's a bunch more to share about the above, but I'm tearing up and don't wanna go there. So, at this time, I'll just tell ya how I sure as hell hate to be the taker and have nothing to give in return. Oh, and I do not use the word "hate" lightly. True. When I was fit, healthy, working and playing ... I was able to contribute so much and my favorites we for the children and animals. Gave both money and time. I can no longer give money and ... I've got the time but ain't much my body will allow me to do anymore. Dang. I sure do miss those days. Still, at least I was so fortunate to have them. There is where I count my blessings big time.

Now? I've reserved myself to be one of those who "have to live with the scars." And, I do so amazingly well. Also, I do contribute to people by talking with them on the phone if they don't have a PC. If they do have a PC, I send them the prettiest stuff I can find. Funny stuff, too. Hon, we all do what we can with what we have.

On the other hand, you are so right about all the quotes you gave, and whenever my own personal road becomes far too hard for me to travel as it does on occasion, you know that I'll take time away to be kind to me.

Please allow me to conclude via this video. I ain't much of one when it comes to juggling unless it's contact juggling. That's way cool. But, comedian Chris Bliss does some real performance art here. It starts out kinda slow, but gets pretty fast as the song's tempo changes. I love it and hope you will, too. Please turn up your volume, click below and enjoy!

Amazing Juggling Finale!

Big Hugs and to you, Angel Poppers and Lovely Ladywolf!!!

See ya later. Gotta run now ...



Always,
Dottie xoxoxox