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[hopelessheart]

I’m so glad I found this site. I recently lost my cat Friend and, I’ve been having a tough time dealing with it. I’ve been feeling depressed and hopefully sharing my story will ease the pain.
My husband found Friend in a Home Depot parking lot during the winter a some years back. Somebody dumped Friend and a couple of his brothers and sisters who were all sadly run over. While walking to his car Friend popped out from underneath a nearby car. It was very cold and I believe he was just trying to keep warm. Friend was skittish at first, but after some convincing he ran into my husband’s arms. He brought Friend home and he very quickly became a member of our family.
We quickly noticed that Friend would rather hang outside than inside with our other cat. So we let him stay outside and our 32 acre ranch gave him plenty of room to hunt and play. Every morning he would come to eat, and on the occasional cold nights or hot days he’d come stay with us inside. He was such a joy to be around, always a laid back cat.
A couple of days ago I called Friend to eat in the morning and he didn’t show. I thought he had maybe run far off and decided to give him awhile to get home. After a couple of hours I realized he wasn’t coming home. In our area we do often have coyotes running around and I was afraid Friend had come across one. Three days went by and I still continued to call him never giving up hope. Finally while I was walking around searching for him I found him. He was crouched in a corner of our goat pen. I called him and called him but he wouldn’t get up. I knew then something was seriously wrong. It wasn’t until I got close to him that I realized the severity of Friend’s issues. It looked as if Friend had been hit by a car. My husband and I decided that Friend was too far gone and he might die on the trip to the vet. So we decided to take him home and take care of him until it was time to let go.
I stayed with Friend the whole night and just talked and petted him trying to make him comfortable. I often tell my animals a sort of bedtime story of how they came into our lives. So I told Friend the story and told him that I understood he was in pain and that it was his time to go. I’ll never forget the look in his eyes as I told him the story. He was looking at me as if he was remembering and understood every word I said. I didn’t want him to die alone so I stayed with him. I got up to go check on my husband who wasn’t feeling too good, and it was at that moment that I left Friend alone that he passed.
My husband and I buried him under a tree on our property. It was so hard to let him go and I feel horrible that he died alone. I miss him and each day without him gets harder and harder. It’s been hard for me to go out in the morning as I was use to seeing him run towards me. Like I said before I hope me sharing this story helps with the pain. Thanks to anybody who reads Friend’s story.

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[hopelessheart]

I really thought my dream would help me get through this but sadly it didn't. I think back on it and Wednesday was a truly amazing day for me. Friend visited me in my dream and I was comforted to know he was ok. Today however was a rough morning. As I was getting ready for work the house was quiet and I remembered Friend's last moments. My husband's words as he put Friend in his make shift coffin are resounding in my head. This is hard, this is really really hard. I'm wondering when or if I'm going to get over this. Some years ago before Friend came into my life, I had an American Eskimo named Tasha. I grew up with her and her death was so hard on me. It literally took me years to get over it. I find it troubling that all of that might happen again. I don't know if I can handle years of heartache again. I feel like I need a vacation away from all of this. I want to go somewhere where every little thing doesn't remind me of Friend.