How To Savor The Time With A Dying Pet?, It's hard... Options

[ladywolf]

Hi All--

Darnnit, every time I look at Ladywolf now, I'm thinking, "she's dying, I wonder how much more time she has...?" I keep staring at her swollen back leg and wondering if it hurts her, if it's growing or shrinking, if, if, if. When I take her for a walk, I watch her movements constantly to see how much she's being affected by the tumors as she walks. I wonder how much she is missing Poppers. I feel as if I am not doing enough for her, when in fact, I am more or less dedicating my LIFE to her right now.

But there's little pleasure left in my interactions with her, because I am spending all my time with her WORRYING now! All this has happened since the vet confirmed that she has cancer--everything changed, somehow. I'm moving through all the stages of grief constantly, and don't know how to be with her in a "normal" way anymore. Does any of this make sense to you folks? I hate this. I don't want to look at my beloved beauty and see only "dying wolf." It's all making me a little insane, and very very sad.

Help, please! Thanks!

Margi and Ladywolf

[smokey/lady/max]

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Just napping with mommy and dreaming of snow in Arizona

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Who says dreams dont come true

[ladywolf]

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Just napping with mommy and dreaming of snow in Arizona

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Who says dreams dont come true

SWEET!!

Actually, it snowed hard here in Arizona last week--8-10" at my altitude, 4500 feet--and Ladywolf went crazy in the snow. The snow brings out the ARCTIC timberwolf in her! She lay down and spread out her legs and made SNOW ANGELS!!!!

Thank you, Anna!

Margi and the Wolflady