I Am Heart-broken, Feeling So Sad Options

[banditsmom]

I had to put my beautiful girl Bandit to sleep on saturday. She was 17 years old. I adopted her when she was 3, and for 14 years, she was with me 24/7. I work from home, so we were always together. I honestly don't remember not having her anymore it has been so long. She was such a huge part of my life. Whenever I was sad, I just had to look at that face and I would smile. I can't believe I'll never see her again, never get to hold her. I'm so sad - she really was my best friend.

[Brutus]

I am picking up her ashes on Saturday, it's already making me anxious thinking about it.

Brutus' ashes were ready the next day, I picked them up 3 days after though. I thought I would just totally freak out, but it actually helped to get them...almost like a type of closure...at least I knew where he was. I put up a shelf with his 2nd fav toy, his collars, a couple plants, photo, poem I wrote for him, candle and a couple other misc. things...that's where I keep his ashes when we are at that house. I put a colliage up above it...it was actually very theraputic for me to do all that stuff...the shelf is in my bedroom above where his bed used to be....I can see it perfectly from my spot in the bed. If you go to the memorial section of the forum, there is a pic there of it and my poem...it could give you some ideas of things you could do for Bandit if you wanted....it really helped me get through the first couple weeks.