I Killed Her Options

[Lisaasr]

On July 6th 2003 my cat "Bean" died from heart disease - he was diagnosed in Dec 2001 was on medication and had been doing really well but suddenly became very ill and passed away. I thought I was going to die too - he was my special little man and I loved him so much. But now something awful has happened. Mimi, Bean's mother is dead and I killed her. I reversed my car over her yesterday morning, I always check to see if any of the cats are near the car but I didn't yesterday, I don't know why I didn't check I always check. Oh God I killed my Mimi. I don't know what to do. I keep reliving it and feeling the bump as the car went over her. I just don't know why I didn't check - I always do, when anyone comes to my house I always make them check before they drive away but I didn't and I killed Mimi. I'm just not coping with this at all. First Bean and now Mimi, How will I ever get over this . Its my fault - I killed her.

Lisa

[rubberduck]

My little buddy Ringo the Caique died from inhalation of fumes from an overheated Teflon pan while I was away on vacation a few days back and my 17 year old son was home alone making mac and cheese. He fell asleep watching tv while waiting for the water to boil.

I can't get beyond the guilt... if only I had gotten rid of the Teflon pans, if only I had raised a more responsible child, if only I didn't go on vacation...

I know it was an accident. But I don't know how to move forward. I am so afraid I will get angry with my son. I can't cry around him because it makes him feel worse. But I can't bottle up my feelings inside. I am heartbroken.