1st Anniversary Soon Options

[AngelBear'sLuv]

January 20th will be the 1-year anniv of that terrible, sad day. I wish I could say that I'm doing well, but I am so-o not. I've spent this year just going through the motions of existence, while missing my beautiful golden girl so intensely, wishing to have her back again, trying to push down this thick lump in my throat as the tears form, and zoning out on memories of happy days with her. Some days I feel stronger than others, and those are the days I force myself to be preoccupied so I can ignore this huge void that's ever present like a dull pain. The trauma and finality of it all is hitting me hard starting this new year without her. I feel like I'm leaving her in the past now, and know that I must continue to do so, even though I feel her presence so strongly right here in my heart.

I just needed someplace to shout out to the universe that I miss you, dear Abigail Mae. And I miss the sweet girl who came before you, Roxanne Autumn. Two awesome golden retrievers who I was so lucky to know and to love.

Thanks for listening. My heart goes out to all of you who know this pain, too.

[Flossie's Mom]

I just passed my 1 year on October 30th so I know the anxiety you are having right now. Sounds like you do like me and have days when you have to work hard to not dwell on the loss. That is my best coping stratigy.

She IS present in your heart and will always be there. You are in hers also.

Thinking of you as you approach this difficult anniversary date.