I Need Help (please) Options

[Rhapsedy]

It has been 13 weeks since I put my soulmate Callaway to sleep and I am overcome with guilt. He had lymphoma and actually lasted longer than the vet thought he would. I had him on Predisolone which seemed to help keep his symptoms at bay. I cooked breakfast and dinner for him everyday for 6 months. He started getting worst. I finally made my decision when I came home and he was laying in a pool of urine because he couldn't get up. I have no idea how long he was laying like that but he looked so sad when I came home and found him that way.

I have been dealing with a bunch of what ifs... what if I would have tried different medication, what if I put him to sleep to soon, should I have gotten a second opinion... and on and on and on. But just the past few days I have been dealing with the look in his eyes when he was being put to sleep. He looked so scared. He had been so weak and when the vet came to euthanize him he got a burst of energy and the vet tech had to hold him down. I can't get that image out of my mind. I hate to think about the last moments of his life that he was scared. It is just consuming me and I don't know how to handle it.

Thanks for listening.

Rhapsedy

[cricket]

Rhapsedy, I hope your grief over losing Callaway has eased. In my opinion, when you find your pet lying in a pool of unine, you are very close to the end. They would never do that, if it could be avoided - and it must be so embarassing.

We've had to euthanize two cats - one twenty, the other nineteen - in five months. Our vet gives the pet an injection, to relax. That way, his last memories will be of you petting and cuddling him. In five minutes, when your pet is sleeping, he returns for the final injection; shaves a front leg, and puts the fur in a bag for you to take home. Then, if there's any difficulty finding a vein, your pet won't feel it.

I'm sure Callaway knew how you felt. Best wishes....