Missing My Baby Options

[Sassy'sMom]

Hi everyone ,

My name is Kathy and I am truely heart-broken right now. I lost my best friend and sweety-pie of almost 10 yrs. It was only she and I. Now it's just me. I am just devastated over her sudden and unexpected passing. After her routine exam, my "Sassy" was dignosed with Hypo-thyroidism and was prescribed some medication by a very young-looking vet, knowing that she had and enlarged heart and murmur. I took her home gave here a pill as precribed with here food. The next morning Sassy was very lathargic, cofused, and didn't seem to recognize me. I called the animal hospital where I had taken her and told them that They needed to see what was wrong with my baby right away. Within an hour, Sassy had taken a turn for the worst right in the hospital. She suddenly lost the use of her hind legs and started whailing with distress. They then started ruuning down a berage of charges to me (money seemed to be their only concern) which was not covered in her wellness plan, that I could not afford right then and there. So, since I didn't have money, they suggested putting her down without even knowing what was causing her distress. They told me that there was nothing they could do for her since I didn't have the money to pay (as I am on fixed income). The young vet that looked at her just left the room and sent back in an assistant to tell me to basically leave her there for euthanization or take her home to make some type of decision or come up with the money before they closed at 7:00pm. I stood the with my baby and bawled while they just watched.

I finally left with her and within an hour after I got home she became worse and whailed nad cried and drug her back legs. I picked her up put her in my lap and started to sing her favorite song to her...(the "BARNEY" theme song..."I LOVE YOU>>>YOU LOVE ME>>...THAT"S THE WAY IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE>>>!! she looked up at me as to say... MOMMY PLEASE HELP ME...she gurgled...lost conrol of her bladder and bowels...jerked a couple of times and expired in my arms!! I believed she had a heart attack and I do believe it was the Thyroid medication that caused it.

I am feeling a terrible since of guilt right now. One, because I was not financially able to leave her there; two, because i didn't realize that x-rays and ECG/EKG was covered in her plan...which may have helped save her or at least let me know what was happening to her; and three, for not being composed enough to demand an eprotopsy(spelling) or as we know it, an autopsy. Sassy has since been cremated and I will never know what really happened to my baby and I truely hope that she is not angry at me. There is no question whether she loved me and knew that her mommy loved her, because she heard it from me everyday of her 9 1/2 years, even as she lay dying in my arms.

I am humbled to know that there is some support in this forum and to all who have lost their babies...GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

I feel as if there is nothing inside of me right now...this is certainly not easy, especially now that I am in this empty house by myself without the presence of my sweet little girl.

[/center]IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY "SASS"
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APRIL 4, 2000 - DECEMBER 11, 2009

[Flossie's Mom]

I am so sorry you had to go through this with your precious Sassy.

I can relate to being treated badly by a vet but my outcome was much better. At 3-1/2 years old my Flossie was paralized in her back legs when I got home from work. No telling how long she had been dragging herself around when I found her. I rushed her to the vet we had been using for just a short time due to a recent move. She had never been away overnight and was in pain & very distressed. The vet took her, put her in a kennel in the back room & when I asked if they were going to give her anything for pain or check her out I was told no, they would check her in the morning. Hearing her cry from the back room, I said "give me the dog back!" I decided I'd lay on the floor with her all night if I had to in order to comfort her. Needless to say I never returned to that vet again. Long story short, after searching around we found an all night vets office, got a fabulous, caring vet who took good care of her, called the vet school first thing the next morning & refered us so she had surgery that enabled her to walk again (only given a 45% chance).

The original vet was closing in 20 minutes so I guess that was the reasoning for not even looking at her. For the next 14 years we were lucky enough to had wonderful treatment for her so be encouraged that not all vets are like the one you encountered. I know it doesn't help really to know that but when you are ready for a new family member to join you do not be afraid of getting this treatment someplace else.

I too lost a beautiful cat in much the same manner at the very end as far as suffering and a diffucult passing and felt very guilty for a long time. But like you, I was holding her so she knew I was there for her just as I always had been. It is such an emotional time and a sad thing that you were treated this way.

I'm convinced there is no easy way to let go of a beloved pet/friend/family member. Sometimes it's not as traumatic but never easy.

Sending hugs & thoughts to you today..............

Ginger