I Need Help (please) Options

[Rhapsedy]

It has been 13 weeks since I put my soulmate Callaway to sleep and I am overcome with guilt. He had lymphoma and actually lasted longer than the vet thought he would. I had him on Predisolone which seemed to help keep his symptoms at bay. I cooked breakfast and dinner for him everyday for 6 months. He started getting worst. I finally made my decision when I came home and he was laying in a pool of urine because he couldn't get up. I have no idea how long he was laying like that but he looked so sad when I came home and found him that way.

I have been dealing with a bunch of what ifs... what if I would have tried different medication, what if I put him to sleep to soon, should I have gotten a second opinion... and on and on and on. But just the past few days I have been dealing with the look in his eyes when he was being put to sleep. He looked so scared. He had been so weak and when the vet came to euthanize him he got a burst of energy and the vet tech had to hold him down. I can't get that image out of my mind. I hate to think about the last moments of his life that he was scared. It is just consuming me and I don't know how to handle it.

Thanks for listening.

Rhapsedy

[Brutus]

Hi Rhapsedy...I'm not a doctor or nurse...nor do I portray one on TV..lol...yes pred is usually given in a short term but had Callaway not had it, he would not have had the last quality of life that he did have....Brutus had mast cell cancer twice and pred is what they gave him...he was on it about 6 months each time. My father has been on pred for over 8 years, without he would die..he will be on it until he passes. You did everything right with Callaway, so try not to second guess...I know how hard this is to not do.

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

[Rhapsedy]

Hi Sonya,

Thank you so much for the response. I am so emotional right now that I question everything I did and didn't do. I keep thinking of the saying... That which doesn't kill us makes us stronger... I should be as emotionally strong as Mike Tyson is physically strong after this. ;-)

Thank you so much for your support. I hope that someday soon I can be as supportive to others as you have been to me this past week.

Hi Rhapsedy...I'm not a doctor or nurse...nor do I portray one on TV..lol...yes pred is usually given in a short term but had Callaway not had it, he would not have had the last quality of life that he did have....Brutus had mast cell cancer twice and pred is what they gave him...he was on it about 6 months each time. My father has been on pred for over 8 years, without he would die..he will be on it until he passes. You did everything right with Callaway, so try not to second guess...I know how hard this is to not do.

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom