Lost My Baby, BK in kitty heaven Options

[fem]

As I type this, the tears flow. Lost my baby BK on Tuesday Dec 8, 2009. It's been dreadful. After 17 yrs of coming home to her each night, I now enter emptiness. She was my best friend and such a good cat. The tears never end.

[Brutus]

I'm so sorry about BK..it is so hard we all know. Some even say it's worse than losing a close relative...and I agree. Losing Brutus, my 13 yr old lab, was the hardest thing I've had to go through..and still go through..today is exactly 4 weeks for me. I struggle every day..the pain is so intense at times it's hard to breathe...just know we are all here for you and feel your pain and tears.

Time will ease the pain but it never totally goes away..we all understand what you are going through. Be easy on yourself and come here often to talk to/about BK..it has really helped me to do that. There are wonderful, caring angels here that will help you get through this horrible time.

Hugs to you and your fur angel BK,
Brutus' Mom

[fem]

I'm so sorry about BK..it is so hard we all know. Some even say it's worse than losing a close relative...and I agree. Losing Brutus, my 13 yr old lab, was the hardest thing I've had to go through..and still go through..today is exactly 4 weeks for me. I struggle every day..the pain is so intense at times it's hard to breathe...just know we are all here for you and feel your pain and tears.

Time will ease the pain but it never totally goes away..we all understand what you are going through. Be easy on yourself and come here often to talk to/about BK..it has really helped me to do that. There are wonderful, caring angels here that will help you get through this horrible time.

Hugs to you and your fur angel BK,
Brutus' Mom

Thank you all so much for your replies and concern. Lots do not understand, and it's comforting to come to a place where others do. I'm finding it difficult to type, as it brings on more tears. She is still so fresh in my mind and always close in heart. Still hard to believe she's gone. A part of the family, my baby. Everything I do reminds me of her. She was all black and so soft and innocent. Every dark shadow i see around me I think is her and worry I will trip over her. For the past two years she had gone deaf, but was still jolly and energetic. It didnt stop her enjoying life. And eventhough she couldn't hear, we still had our own communication. I would point my finger in her direction and she would coming running. I would pat the bed and she would jump up. She loved being held like a baby and would let me pet her forever like that. Oh these memories are only few. So , so, many more. My friends all say I took great care of her and she had a good long life (17). I guess i thought she would never have to go. Too sad to go on with the typing right now.
And my deepest sympathies to you on the loss of your Brutus. I wish you comfort.