I Did Not See This Coming, Sudden Death Options

[sheppie]

Friday the 13th at 4pm, let the dogs out in the backyard and my toddler and I got dressed to join them.
At 4:30 noticed my husky/shepherd x struggling to catch her breath. I placed her on the grass and rolled her
gently over. She was in distress and did not have good colour. I rushed her into the vets office. I was there in 10 mins.
From my time of arrival to the the xray being taken and the terrible news "hemangiosarcoma"....was total time 20 mins.
I said "are you suggesting euthanasia"...to which the vet nodded her head. "What"???????????????????????????????????? I walked this morning and she was running around the yard and barking at 4pm....less than 1 hour ago.

I did not see this coming. She was the picture of health. Never vet related issues only yearly exams. Plus we just had her bloodwork done in July to make sure she was great. So she was 11 but had the energy, great body weight and playfulness of a 3 year old.

I work in a vets office so I see things. But...this is my dog. I cannot eat/sleep or function. I wished (in anger) my other left instead (German Shepherd) as she is dog aggressive and not as kindly towards my toddler on occasion.

I am looking for help...but don't know what kind. I am looking for answers yet know there are not any really. How will I get over this? Will I get over this? I hate everybody right now. I am angry and sad and starting to get mad.

How does a dog that is walked daily, is trim, fed excellent food, well cared for and extremely loved get this nasty cancer?
Why is cancer for dogs on the rise?

So so so sad

[tanbuck]

Hi Sheppie. I am so sorry for your loss. It has been 12 weeks since I lost my cat, Frasier. I understand the feelings you are having. I still have them. Although I function and work and laugh each day, I also cry each day. I totally understand your feelings about the back yard. I have yet to vacuum the room where Frasier stayed before his death. And even though I still have a wonderful dog, Buck, and Frasier's littermate, Niles, I still have a huge hole in my heart for my missing baby. I know you're probably confused about the way you feel towards Jazzie but don't be. I love each one of my pets as if they were my real children (I don't have any children) but for about 2 weeks after Frasier died, I just couldn't warm up to Niles. I've always considered Niles to be my soulmate kitty but something weird happened in those first few days. I can't really describe it but I think you know because of what you said about Jazzie. I was so confused but the weirdness did begin to wear off and now I just want Niles with me every minute.
I'm so sorry you're hurting. In the beginning it's just so suffocating and then it just hangs over you like black cloud. Last night I told my husband that it's really hard right now because it's been long enough that people don't expect me to still be talking about him and missing him so much. My husband just said that you don't erase 14 years in 12 weeks. He's so right. It just hurts. Again, I'm sorry for you. This forum is the best place to be because no one seems to think that anybody is "suffering too long". My thoughts are with you.
-Donna