I Did Not See This Coming, Sudden Death Options

[sheppie]

Friday the 13th at 4pm, let the dogs out in the backyard and my toddler and I got dressed to join them.
At 4:30 noticed my husky/shepherd x struggling to catch her breath. I placed her on the grass and rolled her
gently over. She was in distress and did not have good colour. I rushed her into the vets office. I was there in 10 mins.
From my time of arrival to the the xray being taken and the terrible news "hemangiosarcoma"....was total time 20 mins.
I said "are you suggesting euthanasia"...to which the vet nodded her head. "What"???????????????????????????????????? I walked this morning and she was running around the yard and barking at 4pm....less than 1 hour ago.

I did not see this coming. She was the picture of health. Never vet related issues only yearly exams. Plus we just had her bloodwork done in July to make sure she was great. So she was 11 but had the energy, great body weight and playfulness of a 3 year old.

I work in a vets office so I see things. But...this is my dog. I cannot eat/sleep or function. I wished (in anger) my other left instead (German Shepherd) as she is dog aggressive and not as kindly towards my toddler on occasion.

I am looking for help...but don't know what kind. I am looking for answers yet know there are not any really. How will I get over this? Will I get over this? I hate everybody right now. I am angry and sad and starting to get mad.

How does a dog that is walked daily, is trim, fed excellent food, well cared for and extremely loved get this nasty cancer?
Why is cancer for dogs on the rise?

So so so sad

[sheppie]

Wow this is a great site. Thanks for all your thoughts. My 1st day back at work today and I had to pass the Veterinary Hospital where my darling is still...........in the freezer. The pick up is tomorrow. I was ok then I had some hard times. Not for the sweet puppies and kitties. But for the older healthy dogs/cats that came in today. I did not wish them ill but was so darn sad when I looked at their ages.....12 and 14 respectively.

I know to let it go. And I do. I talked to my vet (where I work) and she told me that this would have been fast.
I did tell her that my gal was following me around for past 3 months and it was driving me nuts. She nodded this could have been the start.

Now I wish she was my shadow again.

Oh......................................this is a long hard and sad sad sad road.


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