I Did Not See This Coming, Sudden Death Options

[sheppie]

Friday the 13th at 4pm, let the dogs out in the backyard and my toddler and I got dressed to join them.
At 4:30 noticed my husky/shepherd x struggling to catch her breath. I placed her on the grass and rolled her
gently over. She was in distress and did not have good colour. I rushed her into the vets office. I was there in 10 mins.
From my time of arrival to the the xray being taken and the terrible news "hemangiosarcoma"....was total time 20 mins.
I said "are you suggesting euthanasia"...to which the vet nodded her head. "What"???????????????????????????????????? I walked this morning and she was running around the yard and barking at 4pm....less than 1 hour ago.

I did not see this coming. She was the picture of health. Never vet related issues only yearly exams. Plus we just had her bloodwork done in July to make sure she was great. So she was 11 but had the energy, great body weight and playfulness of a 3 year old.

I work in a vets office so I see things. But...this is my dog. I cannot eat/sleep or function. I wished (in anger) my other left instead (German Shepherd) as she is dog aggressive and not as kindly towards my toddler on occasion.

I am looking for help...but don't know what kind. I am looking for answers yet know there are not any really. How will I get over this? Will I get over this? I hate everybody right now. I am angry and sad and starting to get mad.

How does a dog that is walked daily, is trim, fed excellent food, well cared for and extremely loved get this nasty cancer?
Why is cancer for dogs on the rise?

So so so sad

[janika]

Hi Sheppie
So pleased to see you on here again. What a beautiful photo and as Madi said, what a lovely place. You must have lots of happy memories , and these will give you strength, even though , like me(and many others on here) you will probably cry when you look at the photo's. Hopefully as time heals it will be less painfull. I have a picture of my angel dogs as Desktop on here, and photos all around me, and I can now just about boot up PC without bursting into floods of tears.

I know what you mean about the hairs, as you can imagine having had two Samoyeds in the house , I have plenty of lovely shimmering white hairs around. Didn't even want to Vacuum at first. Still keep finding them, and I'm putting them in a special little memory box.

Your little son will be bewildered and wonder where his doggie is. My lttle grandson was 21/2 when we lost Tasha and he still remembers her, which is lovely. When Noushka left us and I was crying he said "Don't worry Nanni, she is playing with Tasha in heaven and they're fine". Bless him . He's just 51/2. Little granddaughter is 20 months and she keeps going to Noushkas cupboard and getting her ball and toys out, which I haven't got the heart to move. Children are very resilient and your little son will help you get through this I'm sure.
The 'if I only knew' I can also relate to, with Noushka going so quickly and unexpectedly. I gave her a big hug and told her I loved her as they took her through into nursing area, but I fully expected to see her the next morning.
Angel -one(Dottie) is helping us all with her lovely pictures and quotes. Lots of the wonderful people who have helped me on here have sent you lovely messages. Love to them all.
I found this poem on the Samoyed website

You cannot see or touch me
But I'm standing next to you
Your tears, I know are all for me
But your sadness makes me blue.

Be brave and show a smiling face
Let not your grief show through
I love you from a different place
Yet I'm standing next to you.

Thinking of you
Love Jan xx