I Did Not See This Coming, Sudden Death Options

[sheppie]

Friday the 13th at 4pm, let the dogs out in the backyard and my toddler and I got dressed to join them.
At 4:30 noticed my husky/shepherd x struggling to catch her breath. I placed her on the grass and rolled her
gently over. She was in distress and did not have good colour. I rushed her into the vets office. I was there in 10 mins.
From my time of arrival to the the xray being taken and the terrible news "hemangiosarcoma"....was total time 20 mins.
I said "are you suggesting euthanasia"...to which the vet nodded her head. "What"???????????????????????????????????? I walked this morning and she was running around the yard and barking at 4pm....less than 1 hour ago.

I did not see this coming. She was the picture of health. Never vet related issues only yearly exams. Plus we just had her bloodwork done in July to make sure she was great. So she was 11 but had the energy, great body weight and playfulness of a 3 year old.

I work in a vets office so I see things. But...this is my dog. I cannot eat/sleep or function. I wished (in anger) my other left instead (German Shepherd) as she is dog aggressive and not as kindly towards my toddler on occasion.

I am looking for help...but don't know what kind. I am looking for answers yet know there are not any really. How will I get over this? Will I get over this? I hate everybody right now. I am angry and sad and starting to get mad.

How does a dog that is walked daily, is trim, fed excellent food, well cared for and extremely loved get this nasty cancer?
Why is cancer for dogs on the rise?

So so so sad

[grayman]

My story was similar but with some twists. My pug, just turned 12, showed signs of this and they ordered a splendectomy. To their surprise, it turned out the tumor was benign--there was a chance my little buddy could live for a while to come! And then, a week out of the surgery, he seemed fine, and one morning he was almost dead. I rushed him to the vet, and he died on his own there three days later. Every day I had to decide whether to euthanize--it was horrible. They still don't know what killed him--could have been post-op infection, could have been reaction to the the post-op antibiotics, etc., and yet in both cases, they said it was unusual for symptoms to manifest themselves that many days after surgery. So, I went from worrying that he may have cancer and only weeks or months to live, to being elated at unexpectedly positive news, to him dying in days as a result of the surgery given to show that he did not have cancer. The surgery had to be done either way--his spleen was enlarged and the tumor had caused bleeding, so it may have ruptured even if benig. Still, the turn of circumstances was crushing.; It's been 4 1/2 weeks now, and I'm doing better, but still miss him like crazy, and it still bugs me that I'll never really know why he died. I was crazy about the little guy. SIGH.

grayman