I Did Not See This Coming, Sudden Death Options

[sheppie]

Friday the 13th at 4pm, let the dogs out in the backyard and my toddler and I got dressed to join them.
At 4:30 noticed my husky/shepherd x struggling to catch her breath. I placed her on the grass and rolled her
gently over. She was in distress and did not have good colour. I rushed her into the vets office. I was there in 10 mins.
From my time of arrival to the the xray being taken and the terrible news "hemangiosarcoma"....was total time 20 mins.
I said "are you suggesting euthanasia"...to which the vet nodded her head. "What"???????????????????????????????????? I walked this morning and she was running around the yard and barking at 4pm....less than 1 hour ago.

I did not see this coming. She was the picture of health. Never vet related issues only yearly exams. Plus we just had her bloodwork done in July to make sure she was great. So she was 11 but had the energy, great body weight and playfulness of a 3 year old.

I work in a vets office so I see things. But...this is my dog. I cannot eat/sleep or function. I wished (in anger) my other left instead (German Shepherd) as she is dog aggressive and not as kindly towards my toddler on occasion.

I am looking for help...but don't know what kind. I am looking for answers yet know there are not any really. How will I get over this? Will I get over this? I hate everybody right now. I am angry and sad and starting to get mad.

How does a dog that is walked daily, is trim, fed excellent food, well cared for and extremely loved get this nasty cancer?
Why is cancer for dogs on the rise?

So so so sad

[chele]

I'm so sorry. I know the pain all too well. I too lost my Callie to Hemangiosarcoma. It's a terrible sneaky disease. It's so hard to lose our loved ones. I was crazy with the pain. I couldn't breathe, my chest was tight and I couldn't stop crying for more than minutes at a time. Give yourself time to grieve. If I did anything right, it was that. I let my self cry when I needed to and immersed myself in the pain and somehow each day got a little easier until suddenly one day the chest pain was gone and not too long after that I realized I was breathing again. The firsts were hardest for me. The first night without her, the first morning without her, the first shower without her. After I got through the firsts it started to get easier. Best wishes to you.