It's Our Fault, Guilt Options

[Soverysad]

I am feeling so guilty over the death 2 days ago of our 11 year old black pug, Clancy. I'm not even certain I belong here because I feel like a terrible pet owner--just an awful person. It all started Tuesday when our house was just crazy with activity. We had a small house fire a few weeks back & the insurance adjuster was here. We also had someone here helping to clean up the remaining soot leftover from the fire. My husband was working from home--a demanding job that keeps him on call 24/7. My 4 kids were being their usual selves, wanting attention. My husband & I were on the phone ordering a new oven (casualty of the fire) and finalizing vacation plans. None of it should have removed our focus from caring for our dog, but stupidly it did. I had asked my husband to put Clancy in the yard, the yard she loved to run & play in, just until things calmed down a bit. When he went to bring her inside, she had collapsed. My heart sank & I immediately put her in our bathtub, trying to revive her. She seemed stable enough to make the trip to her vet. They worked on her to stabilize her further & sent us to a larger animal hospital. She was critical and we prayed so very hard that she would recover. How could we have let this happen? Why was our poor dog suffering for our stupidity?
The following morning, the vet told me that although she was still critical, she had not gotten worse, which was a promising sign. We no sooner hung up when the vet called my husband to say Clancy had stopped breathing & they were doing CPR. After 15 minutes, they were still unable to revive her.
I am so sick over this that I can barely get out of bed. How could we have hurt our sweet dog like this? Clancy, I am so, so sorry! I don't think I can ever forgive myself. I am the mommy. It's my job to care for everyone. She needed us & we let her down.
It's ok if I get hurtful responses---I deserve it. I would do anything to turn back the clock. I know I will never be the same. My heart is broken & it's my own fault.

[nisey]

I am so sorry! I lost my two babies July 15 and August 2. I think alot of people on this site have guilt. I know I do and I did the best I could. You did the best you could. You loved your baby and tried to help. I will pray for you and your family. I know the pain. It is unrelenting but you are not alone.

Blessings,
Nisey