2 Weeks And It's Still Raw Options

[Felicia]

Dear Brittany:
2 weeks have passed since that heart breaking day I had to make the most difficult decision of my life. And the pain is so overwhelming.....Each day I come home from work to an empty apt. You used to always be there waiting for your breakfast & your walk....But now there's nothing..
I hope that you are happy.....Playing with Brody & trying to get treats & "belly rubs" from Grandma & Grandpa........I know that their so happy that you are with them....But my heart is breaking, not being able to see or touch you......
I still talk to you every day thinking you're right behind me.....but you're not....I still make meals enough for me & you, knowing that you'll be there looking for scraps...... but your not. I still wake up in the middle of the night to see where you're sleeping.....but you're not there.

I know that you're not suffering any more, and that should comfort me......but it doesn't. I wish I was selfish & kept you with me for a while longer.......But that last day when you couldn't even come to me, & just looked up at me with those big brown eyes I knew it was time.......
For you, but certainly not for me.......I know that you're watching over me, so you know all the pain that my heart feels.
Be happy Britt
I love you & miss you with all my heart.
Love your mom
Felicia

[gailie]

can i say something? first of all, i am so sorry for your loss. a month... 6 months... that is NOT a long time if you weigh
it against the years we had our beloved dog. grief has no time limit. we love our dogs with abandon.. and they love us just the same, so it takes a long time to come to terms with their being gone. it's just so terribly sad to lose a dog we loved so much and who loved us that much. even tho their gone, they are still all around us mentally. things we did for them on a daily basis... their dishes...their coat.. leash. it's heartbreaking... no way around it.

our grief is a reflection of our love. remember that. like i've said in a few other threads, my beagle was put to sleep yesterday. i miss her and wish she was still her so i could love her, but she's gone. and yea... it's empty. but having lost 3 other dogs i know that in due time i'll be able to smile without all the tears and sadness i feel now.

hang in there, because the more you express your grief, things will get better. if your up to it, at some point get another dog who needs a good home and lots of love. i dpn't know why God gives us dogs for such a short period of time, but He does.

hug. gail