My Best Friend Options

[Ginger4ever]

Yesterday was the hardest day of my life. Many people will say that, after having a bad day at work/school, but it was true. It was horrible enough for the past weeks to have seen my hamster and best friend Ginger suffer, but yesterday it ended. Ginger hadn’t been doing well for a long time. She was bleeding, blind, deaf and, overall, old. However yesterday, she was paralyzed from waist down, and I knew she was in pain. I was the one who asked for my mom to take me to the vet’s to have her put down. Usually, a parent will say either “Sweetie, we think it’s best if you put him down,� or “Honey, do you want to put her down?� but no. Not with me. I was the one who asked my mom. And I’m just a kid, I’m only 11 years old. I don’t want to be the mature one. I wanted comforting, for my mom to tell me it’ll be okay, but in about two hours, we came home from the vet’s with a dead hamster to burry in the backyard. I know people here know what it’s like, but it just hurts so much. I miss Ginger. She was my best friend.

[Ginger4ever]

The worst part is - I'm not even sure if I have any pictures of her. I didn't want to take any of her while she was sick. I couldn't remember her like that. And it just feels so horrible. I wish that I would wake up any minute, jump out of bed to my dresser, and see on the top her cage, where's she running on top of her wheel. I'd repeat to myself. 'It's just a dream. It's just a dream. Not real. She's okay." But it's not a dream. It's not okay. I'm not going to wake up, and she'd be there, because she's gone.