Please Help Me With My Grief Options

[scottie]

on tuesday evening i had to put my precious little crystal to sleep.she was a 16 and a half year old cat. im 39 years old but my mother brought her to the vet for me because i couldnt do it..i said my long goodbye to her all day tuesday.holding hugging and kissing her and telling her how much i loved her. it started in january when she lost her appititite and was sleeping a lot. the vet took blood and she had a thyroid problem.thats why she was drinking a lot too. put her on meds and worked for a few months. then her back legs started giving out from time to time and it looked like she had arthritis. she never fell over but walked off sideways.her heart rate was up too so she was put on meds for that. for the past two weeks she really failed. wasnt eating much,drinking a lot,starring off in the distance.then sunday she would eat and throw up.and had a hard time getting up.so we talked to our vet and decided it was time.well unknown to us he said her skin was turning yellow so she probably was in the final stages of liver cancer. so we put her down to spare her any more pain.i cannot get over this.ive been crying since tuesday and cant stop. i didnt eat for two days and cant sleep.ive never been in this much pain. she was my world.there when i woke up,there when i came home. in bad times would sit on my lap and purr. and when i was sad she would lick my face. she came running when you called her name.i always said she was like a little puppy dog.when she laid beside me in bed she would put her paw over my arm.she was the sweetest thing ive ever known.she was my very best friend and i dont know how to cope.im in pain.i look at her picture and plead for her to come back...but i know i did the right thing. i couldnt watch her be torn down to skin and bones. she already was loosing so much weight.this was the hardest thing ive ever had to do...im so lonely now..i love you crystal....R.I.P.

[JanEeee]

How we love our dear friends and how painful it is when their time comes.

I have had two kitties pass away in 9 months, first Molly Malone in September and then Mr X just a few days ago. Molly had thyroid problems and was able to stay with me for 2.5 years after her diagnosis. Mr X had 2 types of cancer and was gone in a matter of months. I got them both in 1997 when they were kittens. What a lot of history we shared. So impossible to think that they are truly gone.

Some days I just cry and cry and others I am more able to go about my routine. There is no cure for this deep loss. We must participate in it and allow ourselves to honor these feelings which are an expression of love for our pets. Not an easy time. You will find many others here who know that all too well.

Come back and chat some more, tell us all about your friend, we share the same sense of shock and deep loss. We are here to listen and give you support.

Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day for you.

J