It's Over, R.I.P my faithful friend Options

[petmum]

It's over, my Buddy is @ rest now, what an awful to go thru, but I hve and I'm still here.
It hasn't sunk in yet, i'm just numb....had myself a large nip of Bailey's in my coffee a while ago & eaten chocolate, I couldn't think of anything else to do.
I got chocolate for the kids too, but no one really wants to eat.... I cant believe he has gone, I just want to go outside & check to see, but I'm not just yet.....my son has gone off to football training & i'm going to take one of my daughters to choir, she is singing in the choir @ our local church tonight. My eldest daughter who is 12yrs is staying @ hme with me, she is very upset a bit angry @ the world in general....sigh...... i can't believe i've done what I've just done.....

[petmum]

thank you so much melanie, u r right it's 20 days today, the weekend was rough for some reason, i love your description of our fur friends playing it was lovely.
i cant believe i'm doing this but tomorrow (and I realised that it will b 21days exactly to the day that Buddy passed), I'm going to an animal shelter bout an hour's drive from my place to meet a golden retriever called Jesse who is 3.5yrs male. I know the pain will still be there over Buddy, it's just that life seems so not right with out a dog around, if Jesse likes me & I like him I'll take the kids nxt time for a meet & greet & see what happens. I've talked to the kids bout getting a new dog & they are just so practical. My husband wld like to wait till after our holidays nxt May b4 we get another fur friend, but to be honest I don't think I wld last that long. I'm not sure this is the right thing to be doing, but I guess I've got to go thru this to find out.......I wouldn't adopt Jesse if it didn't feel right (what ever that means), I just so miss not having Buddy it's still painful.
If u hve any thoughts bout what i'm doing fire them @ me. I thought it wld b months & months b4 I cld even think of getting another dog, but hey....who knows...
elaine