It's Over, R.I.P my faithful friend Options

[petmum]

It's over, my Buddy is @ rest now, what an awful to go thru, but I hve and I'm still here.
It hasn't sunk in yet, i'm just numb....had myself a large nip of Bailey's in my coffee a while ago & eaten chocolate, I couldn't think of anything else to do.
I got chocolate for the kids too, but no one really wants to eat.... I cant believe he has gone, I just want to go outside & check to see, but I'm not just yet.....my son has gone off to football training & i'm going to take one of my daughters to choir, she is singing in the choir @ our local church tonight. My eldest daughter who is 12yrs is staying @ hme with me, she is very upset a bit angry @ the world in general....sigh...... i can't believe i've done what I've just done.....

[shannon2183]

Elaine,

My thoughts are with you as you start this journey. I hope reading my long...and often longwinded posts about Penny helped at least a bit. I found that reading old posts helped me dramatically because I saw how people actually got through the pain. In the beginning, I honestly didn't know how I would continue living. Of course I didn't feel that in a suicidal way, but more like "how in the world can I wake up and just go on with my day?". And even last night (it's been almost 9 months) I saw a picture of her and cried but it's no longer the heart wrenching grief...but just cuz I miss her little self. But I have a feeling animals hold a different view of the world that is beyond our human comprehension -- and as I try to understand that daily, I see what Penny is showing me. I know she has never left me and will always remain in my home. I even think she's coaching our new pup a bit:) Buddy is still with you always...and I don't say that in a "he's in your heart" which is also true, but I honestly feel their spirits remain such a part of us that all we can do is thank the Lord for the time he allowed us to have them. It also helps me to imagine with every new pet that moves on without us, that's now a new friend that Penny is running the hills with and chasing birds together....

Allow yourself to cry, be confused, be angry, scream (I literally laid in bed and wailed for 2 days straight) or whatever it is you need to do. I didn't want people to tell me "it's ok", or "don't cry"...I just wanted to feel what it was that I was feeling. Every time someone tried to say "oh...I'm sorry" it made me miss Penny more because I could feel any way with her around and she still would cuddle beside me and kiss my face. So know that whatever it is you feel you need to do is ok and definitely not crazy. I read some pet loss books which at first I thought wouldn't help, but they really did because I realized that I wasn't crazy to feel as I did about my Penpen.

LS helped me so much, so keep writing any thought and we'll be here to prop you up:)

Peace,
Shannon