Shock Is Now Turning Into Realization Options

[Scarlett]

Grief is a strange thing. I thought I was working through my grief - although I was not sure I would ever really heal. Now I realize the past 3 1/2 weeks was really all just a stage of shock. Losing my Callym was just raw and hurt.

Now I find myself weeping in bed at night, and waking up feeling really lonely. The permanence of his loss is starting to really hit home. I think my grief is entering a new phase. I am realizing that this is not just about shock and disbelief, that this is not a trial separation for a few weeks or months - Callym has passed on. It's hurting and is painful all over again. I am functioning okay in day to day life, but the hurt is so deeply embedded as I really learn to accept my darling has passed on. I don't want to accept this.

[ceaserthings]

I understand...I miss my Ceaser very much and it is very difficult. He was still young and I feel he was very healthy. He was only 12 years old.
I believe what happened to my Ceaser was a true accident he was not supposed to die just yet.
I am also upset and it is not easy at all no matter how much time and Heaven talk...I know he is in Heaven but I miss his physical presence very very much!!!
Hang in there......and this site is wonderful for what we are going through!

hugs!!