Shock Is Now Turning Into Realization Options

[Scarlett]

Grief is a strange thing. I thought I was working through my grief - although I was not sure I would ever really heal. Now I realize the past 3 1/2 weeks was really all just a stage of shock. Losing my Callym was just raw and hurt.

Now I find myself weeping in bed at night, and waking up feeling really lonely. The permanence of his loss is starting to really hit home. I think my grief is entering a new phase. I am realizing that this is not just about shock and disbelief, that this is not a trial separation for a few weeks or months - Callym has passed on. It's hurting and is painful all over again. I am functioning okay in day to day life, but the hurt is so deeply embedded as I really learn to accept my darling has passed on. I don't want to accept this.

[petmum]

{{{HUGS}}}