All To Hard Really Options

[petmum]

Only 8 days ago life was right, sigh!!!! Now it's all weird.
I only just made it down the pet food aisle in the supermarket yesterday by putting my head down & not looking @ the shelves. Thinking maybe I shld avoid that aisle nxt week. I thought that I might feel "better" but sometimes it feels even worse now than when I was waiting for the time to take Buddy to the vets to go to sleep. Things are still difficult. I sat with my 11yr old daughter on Tuesday and showed her this website and stuff cos she was just so overwhelmed she couldn't go to school. I thought missing my Buddy was hard but helping my daughter with her grief was all to tough. By the end of the day she was much better and realised it's ok to cry and feel all these strange sensations, not sleeping, not eating & being really sad & crying......this is just all so INCREDIBLY painful.....YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't bring myself to take our big wheelie bins out for collection this week (my husband did it instead) cos Buddy wouldn't be there for our little ritual of taking the bins out & him getting in the way & tripping me up and then he scarpers off to do his business out the front and hve a sniff around and then back. Nothing really exciting bout the whole thing but it's just another reminder that life has changed so much........I want to cry but finding it difficult to let it happen.....so just waiting for the next set of emotions to roll on in and experience them....SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Gemini's Mom]

I did the same thing today...had to go to the hardware store and the have a pet isle there with food dishes, flea collars, chains...etc. and I went through with my head down trying not to look.

My daughter just moved back home and brought her dog...(my grand dog) with her. He is part yellow lab we have no idea what the other part is. She had rescued him from the pound and they weren't sure either. He used to love coming over and playing with Gemini, he went from room to room looking for him. It was kind of sad to watch. He went over and found the bones he used to share with him took one and started chewing on it and thats when I started to cry again thinking of Gemini and how he loved those bones. He would only decide to chew them while we were watching a movie or going to sleep. crunch...crunch....crunch.
It's been a little comfort having her dog here, he loves to snuggle and he's gotton a lot of my tears on him poor little guy.
I know what you mean you never know where or when the emotions are going to hit.
((((hugs))))

"Greif is a healing journey, and I will trust my heart to lead my head in this journey."