All To Hard Really Options

[petmum]

Only 8 days ago life was right, sigh!!!! Now it's all weird.
I only just made it down the pet food aisle in the supermarket yesterday by putting my head down & not looking @ the shelves. Thinking maybe I shld avoid that aisle nxt week. I thought that I might feel "better" but sometimes it feels even worse now than when I was waiting for the time to take Buddy to the vets to go to sleep. Things are still difficult. I sat with my 11yr old daughter on Tuesday and showed her this website and stuff cos she was just so overwhelmed she couldn't go to school. I thought missing my Buddy was hard but helping my daughter with her grief was all to tough. By the end of the day she was much better and realised it's ok to cry and feel all these strange sensations, not sleeping, not eating & being really sad & crying......this is just all so INCREDIBLY painful.....YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't bring myself to take our big wheelie bins out for collection this week (my husband did it instead) cos Buddy wouldn't be there for our little ritual of taking the bins out & him getting in the way & tripping me up and then he scarpers off to do his business out the front and hve a sniff around and then back. Nothing really exciting bout the whole thing but it's just another reminder that life has changed so much........I want to cry but finding it difficult to let it happen.....so just waiting for the next set of emotions to roll on in and experience them....SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Sammie girl'...]

Elaine,

We are in the same boat, my friend. It was 10 days ago and Sammie was running around playing and I was on vacation having a wonderful time. Now, it's ALL wrong and all different. That book I mentioned in my last post, "All Pets Go to Heaven", try to read that. I really think it might give you some relief from the pain and at this point I think we'll take every ounce of relief we can. I have a 12 year old son and daughter, not twins, one is mine and one is my husband's. I thought it would be my daughter that had the roughest time b/c she spent the most time with Sammie but it is actually my stepson. He is taking this hard and he doesn't know what to do with himself during the day now that schools out. He spent a lot of time playing with Sammie outside. I don't even know if he realizes why he is so sad but I do. It is hard to keep it together for them. I have to talk to myself a hundred times a day. First, I had to tell myself to breath and now I'm telling myself that Sammie wouldn't want me to be so sad. I think that if she can see me I want her to see me smiling by remembering all the wonderful times we had. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. But I have to do something or I'll go to bed and never get up again and cry all day. Hang in there. I'm praying for you and I think about you everyday.
Melanie