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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 63 Joined: 30-May 09 From: Denver Member No.: 5,819 ![]() |
I feel better knowing that I am not the only one who have had a pet die unexpectedly. I thought for sure that my 12 year old Beage Ceaser whom I have shared a decade with, would quietly go in peace with his head resting on my lap under a tree from natural old age....But no...it didn't end up that way. Ceaser started to vomit one afternoon and would not stop, I decided to give it the night thinking he was just ill from too much srapfood... ( I had fed him Chineses food..and is I swear I will never eat Chinese again. In the past, he had alwasy been fine but this time the portion was too much. ) Ceaser started to vomit friday afternoon and I called the vet that day to schedule an appointment, they were full and recommended the emergency vet. I decided to just give it the night.....and to check him in the morning. When I woke up the next day, he was in horrible shape and I rushed him to the emergency vet...things happend so fast and I was in severe denial when the Dr was telling me how bad he really was. Too much grease and oil for his pancreas to handle resulted in an acute Pancreatitis whith a possible perfurated ulcer which resulted in overall severe perontitis and shock. He died a few hours later with me there. I had to go home real quick thinking he was going to make it but rushed right back per the Vet's order. He was waiting for me to pass. I got there and spent some time with him, spoke to him and petted him and then he went into a cardiac arrest. Long story short....I witnessed his soul leave his body and I believe that Ceaser waiting for me was his gift to me. He confirmed that our connection was real...our bond was real and that we truy loved and cared for aach other unconditionally. It has been a month now and the acute emotional pain is slowly going away but I do miss him very much. The guilt of why I didn't take him in sooner is still there and the guilt and regret of feeding him the chinese is even bigger. The heavy feelings of loss and longing for the dog is greater than ever. First comes the initial attack of pain then the steady pain...then pain at times and then guilt, regret and the that pain leaves but another pain called longing starts; burdened by guilt and regret. So it is not easy and I know he is in Heaven and I enjoy his visits and when I get those "visits"...I feel much better and feel very blessed to be able to enjoy this relationship at another level! I just wanted to share......I am working on his scrapbook and other projects that helps me re-live Ceaser's life. [/sup][color="#8B0000"][/color][/sub][/i] |
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 82 Joined: 9-June 09 Member No.: 5,847 ![]() |
I am so so sorry about Ceasar. I just lost my Sammie (3 1/2 year old black and white sheltie) on Saturday unexpectedly. Sammie, also had a serious pancreatitis attack due to table surfing at my daughter's birthday party a few years ago. We were lucky the first time. The hospital saved her but it weakened her immune system so bad that she developed Addison's disease and had an Addison's Crisis attack which took her life away from me.
The raw unbelievable pain is indescribable. You described exactly how I feel right now. My emotions don't even make sense half the time. I am so thankful that you are doing better. I am going to have one of my friends help me put together a book about Sammie and all the things we did together and all the hundreds of pictures we have of her. I think I have more pictures of the dog than my 3 kids. She's my screen saver on my computer and my wallpaper on my phone. I am thankful that Ceasar was in your life for the time he was to bring you so much love and joy. What an amazing gift he was to you. I will lift you up in prayer today for your continued healing. Melanie |
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