My Beloved Mason Options

[arkania]

Not sure where to start.

I lost my best friend, a 10 year old cat named Mason last Sunday (May 31) evening after a quick and mysterious illness. The whole thing has left me in shock and has absolutely devastated me. I know a lot of you have gone through this, or are going through the same thing.

Mason was a vibrant, extremely loving cat who use to drive me nuts some days with his affection, LOL. We had such a strong bond that was shared only between us. I don't believe animals can belong to anyone in the owning sense, but he truly was my cat (if that makes any sense).

Mason became sick suddenly on saturday and rapidly deteriorated on Sunday. We took him to emergency, had x ray's done, but no conclusive reason could be found. Anyways, he became so sick that I had to make the decision to have him put to sleep (which broke my heart, but he was so uncomfortable I just couldn't let him suffer). I stayed with him until the end, he knew I was there, I whispered to him how much I loved him.

I was an absolute (and still am) mess. I keep asking...what happened? Why did this happen so quickly and without warning? He was happy and playing last week, and now he's been taken away from me. I'm angry, upset, lost.

The vet did mention that he was probably sick for a while because of jaundice he observed, but still I wonder how I didn't see the signs and if I could've saved him had I not been more proactive.

I miss him so much, and I know that I will never have a friend like him again. Yes, I have other cats, each of which I dearly love, but Mason was special. Can't explain, he just was unique.

Love you so much Mason!! I'll never forget you, never let go. Part of me died with your passing.

[arkania]

Thank you all for the kind words and support, everyone of you is amazing!

Angel, that was very sweet, thank you so much.

Scarlett, my sympathy and hugs to you. I know exactly what you mean about finding things around the house that remind you of your companion. I found one of mason's whiskers yesterday, and I broke down. See his fur and his favourite toy is just too much to bear sometimes.

JayT, thanks for your kind words!

I've decided to get a tattoo paw print of my beloved cat so as a tribute and reminder of the bond I shared, and still share, with Mason. I will never forget. I have other cats in my life, and when the pass, so I shall add their pawprints.

Take care all.