Feeling Worse 3 Months Later? Options

[kanecutter]

Just wondering if anyone else out there has had this happen. I had my dog euthanized on Feb. 4, 2009. It was Kidney Desease, I was so devastated I could not stay in my own skin in my home for about 3 weeks. Could not bear her absence. She was what I lived for, I guess. Now over 3 months later, I am backsliding and feeling even worse. But this time nothing helps. No people, no going out shopping, no walking...all old coping mechanisms that I used when she first died don't work this time at all.
Does anyone else feel this bad even after more than 3 months? I got a therapist because I just could not deal with the pain alone any longer. She's someone to talk to but still....feel like dying. Can't seem to find anything worth living for without my girl.
Please let me know if anyone else felt this way. Or, else I think I may be losing my mind.

thank you!

[kanecutter]

Oh, Dottie, you are so kind. The lyrics are so sweet, but I blow by them because reading them is too darn painful. What is wrong with me? I think I am going to definately do foster care for a beagle rescue here. Everyone who knows me says I should not do it. It is too soon and I seem unusually obsessed with helping little old beagles that suffered like Bea.
They say I am displacing my emotions and will be in worse shape. I feel the need to do it yet am thinking, no, I want Bea, I must have little Bea. Why did I rush to euthanize her? So guilty for not waiting longer.

I would give my life to see her one more time. I just cannot figure out if this foster care idea is to help me or if it really is displacement, as it has only been 3 1/2 months since her death and I cannot even picture her in my mind without extreme pain. Any suggestions on this beagle foster care idea?

Thanks so much...

God bless you.