I Lost My Friend, Now She's Alone. Options

[george]

A few months ago I lost my Bun-Bun, and I went threw all the grief and the turmoil of loosing my pet but I learned to deal with the pain and the guilt of having to see her slip away from my life.
I don't know how to explain to anyone , even my family that I still grieve deeply everyday for my Bun-Bun. If I bring it up , I'm given looks like I'm "hanging on" to much, if I seem down someone will say"get over it" . This is ridiculous that a grown man has been effected so deeply by the lost of a pet.
I had many, many pets and have put down many of them, but this one was different. (I guess) I was just not ready, I have, since that day second guessed my decision to "let her go". It should have waited a bit. I just wasn't ready to see her go, there was another way, I think.. It's one of those choices you second guess for ever. I guess..
I have called the vet several times and was told it was the right thing to do, but I was not ready to "make that decision for her" , she trusted me in every way, I cant help think I let her trust down. SOB, I cant get over making that decision. I'm sorry Bun-Bun.
I have learned my talking to people who had similar experiences that this feeling most likely wont go away, it's always going to be one of those things that make us look older then we should.
I try and convince myself that I did the right thing, but for what ever reason I will always think I could have went down another path and things would have been different. It was a mistake !
I cant either un-do it or re-do it. I have to live with it..
I had some greatly appreciated help from many of my friends here at Lightning Strike and I would like to thank all of you very much,You know who you are.
If any one every asked me about "putting down" a pet, I would tell them to think, re-think and re-think the decision. It is the right thing to do for a animal in pain, but just think about it for a day.. then do the right thing...Your doing justice for both of you !