One Week & I Still Hurt Options

[Grieving in Mich...]

Today has been one week since my Jasper puppy was hit by a truck and we had to make the horrible decision to send him on to God.

I can't stop replaying last Saturday over and over - seeing him off his leash across the street where he wasn't supposed to be. If only I hadn't called him to me.

I'm so sorry Jazzy! I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry . . .

When will the pain stop? When will I stop seeing things that remind me of his sweet little face? When will I feel normal again? I miss him so much, he was my baby boy. No matter how many tears I shed, the emptiness will not go away. I feel like a zombie walking through each day.

I'm so sorry Jazzy! I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry . . . I love you so much my baby boy! :..(

[Grieving in Mich...]

Thank you all for your support and kind words. It means so much to know there are others who understand.

I had a wave hit me today when I was at work. I opened my photo folder on my computer looking for something and Jazzy's little face filled the screen. It's the first time since his death that I saw his picture.

I quietly made my way to the restroom where I allowed the wave to wash over me, sobbing quietly so no one could hear.

I'm so sorry, Jasper! Mommy loves you so much. I hurt, baby boy and I'm so sorry you got hurt.

Gotta go - here comes another wave . . . please pray for me.