One Week & I Still Hurt Options

[Grieving in Mich...]

Today has been one week since my Jasper puppy was hit by a truck and we had to make the horrible decision to send him on to God.

I can't stop replaying last Saturday over and over - seeing him off his leash across the street where he wasn't supposed to be. If only I hadn't called him to me.

I'm so sorry Jazzy! I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry . . .

When will the pain stop? When will I stop seeing things that remind me of his sweet little face? When will I feel normal again? I miss him so much, he was my baby boy. No matter how many tears I shed, the emptiness will not go away. I feel like a zombie walking through each day.

I'm so sorry Jazzy! I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry . . . I love you so much my baby boy! :..(

[ann]

I so much feel your pain and understand what you are going thru. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make all of our hurt go away. I can tell you this, however, it will ease in time. I cannot say when for we a all different. I understand your guilt too. But, you can't blame yourself. It's a totally natual reaction. Just recentaly, I was calling my cat Piper. She usually comes fairly quickly. But, that day I noticed her head popped up from the bush across the street. My heart sank. She saw me and wanted to cross. I was waving my arms franticly telling her to stay. Luckily I was able to get to her first. But it also happened with another I had years ago. I called her and as she crossed she nearly got hit. Sadly we live and learn, but they are not human and we have no controll over thier actions.
This was an accident and Jazzy knows it too. In time all your questions will be answered. You will always have a missing piece in your heart, but you will smile again when you think of him.
I have just past the 10mo mark . I still feel sadness, but it doesn't consume me. I still cry, but not everyday, I still see his face everywhere. I still hurt, but less intensly. There is hope. In the meantime, we are here at LS to help. I'm so greatful for the support I've found here...Your in my thoughtsa and prayers..Hugs..Ann