I Lost My Best Friend, loss, grief Options

[stephandsadie]

Hi everyone, I'm new to this site, but I sure wish I would have found it sooner. I had to put my sweet baby girl, Sadie, to sleep almost three weeks ago. She lost a battle with bone cancer; her vet and I thought she had arthritis, and when I took her to a specialist and found out she actually had bone cancer, it was only one short week before I tearfully made the realization that she couldn't make it through the night. (!) I have gotten past feelings of "maybe I waited too long to end her suffering," "I wish I could've been able to afford amputation surgery & chemotherapy," and "What did I do to deserve this bad karma?" (Sadie would've been six years old on 12/27/04). I'm not sad for my Honey Bear anymore, because she isn't suffering. Now, I am just sad for myself, and although it's only been three weeks (tomorrow), I am still very, very sad and feeling alone. I always used to say, "I don't know WHAT I will do when my dog dies!" And I couldn't have been more right. I don't know what to do. I miss her terribly, and I feel like it's impossible to live without her.

Stephanie

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[Stymy's Mom]

I am so sorry for your loss. I to lost my little boy to cancer. Sadie was a beautiful dog. She was lucky to have you in her life. Do not kick your self about not doing chemo or anything else. There are no guarantees with cancer, even if you spend allot of money.

I choose not to do chemo, because even if he had no reactions to it, it would only spare his life a few more months. I didn't want to chance making him more sick. What was left of his life I wanted it to be the best I could give him.

Remember how Sadie loved you. She still loves you, only now in spirit. She is happy and healthy and will never want for anything again. The rainbow bridge is not far and I am sure she visits you often.

Love and belief,
Vicki