I Lost My Best Friend, loss, grief Options

[stephandsadie]

Hi everyone, I'm new to this site, but I sure wish I would have found it sooner. I had to put my sweet baby girl, Sadie, to sleep almost three weeks ago. She lost a battle with bone cancer; her vet and I thought she had arthritis, and when I took her to a specialist and found out she actually had bone cancer, it was only one short week before I tearfully made the realization that she couldn't make it through the night. (!) I have gotten past feelings of "maybe I waited too long to end her suffering," "I wish I could've been able to afford amputation surgery & chemotherapy," and "What did I do to deserve this bad karma?" (Sadie would've been six years old on 12/27/04). I'm not sad for my Honey Bear anymore, because she isn't suffering. Now, I am just sad for myself, and although it's only been three weeks (tomorrow), I am still very, very sad and feeling alone. I always used to say, "I don't know WHAT I will do when my dog dies!" And I couldn't have been more right. I don't know what to do. I miss her terribly, and I feel like it's impossible to live without her.

Stephanie

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[Miss Mew]

Ah! Beautiful and Sweet Sadie. No wonder you miss her. I am so very sorry for your loss.
Is is wonderful that you have gotten past the feelings of guilt. It is also very insightful and honest of you to admit that now, you are simply feeling very sad for yourself. However you are mistaken in feeling alone. By coming to this site you are about to receive compassion, empathy, understanding and prayers. Of course that won't make the pain disappear, but it will comfort you tremendously.
Please keep writing, and when you feel up to it, please share more of Sadie's life with us.
Stephanie, please take care of yourself
Nicole