I Lost My Best Friend, loss, grief Options

[stephandsadie]

Hi everyone, I'm new to this site, but I sure wish I would have found it sooner. I had to put my sweet baby girl, Sadie, to sleep almost three weeks ago. She lost a battle with bone cancer; her vet and I thought she had arthritis, and when I took her to a specialist and found out she actually had bone cancer, it was only one short week before I tearfully made the realization that she couldn't make it through the night. (!) I have gotten past feelings of "maybe I waited too long to end her suffering," "I wish I could've been able to afford amputation surgery & chemotherapy," and "What did I do to deserve this bad karma?" (Sadie would've been six years old on 12/27/04). I'm not sad for my Honey Bear anymore, because she isn't suffering. Now, I am just sad for myself, and although it's only been three weeks (tomorrow), I am still very, very sad and feeling alone. I always used to say, "I don't know WHAT I will do when my dog dies!" And I couldn't have been more right. I don't know what to do. I miss her terribly, and I feel like it's impossible to live without her.

Stephanie

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[Jjay]

Im so sorry Its really hard isnt it? But you can talk to all of us my friend.
Sadie is so very gorgeous! ! Was that taken provesionally? shes a total darling (you know she still is!) she is right there with you know!
Jaymie x