Death And Dying Pet Support, Anyone else like this after 6 weeks? Options

[kanecutter]

Since I work from home and own a pet sitting/dog walking business, my girl was with me 24/7 for the last 9 years. I fostered her, she was a very sad soul at first, neglected abused 1st 3 yrs of life. I ended up keeping her and loved her so much I wrapped my entire life around getting her out to run for hours each day and then when she became ill last Fall, all I did was work on keeping her happy, nothing else mattered.

I had to have her euthanized a little over a month ago. I wanted to die with her. It was the worse pain I have ever gone through in my life. During the first two weeks I literally could not stay in my own skin in the house alone...had to avoid the bone chilling absence of her presence. After the third week I began trying to rebuild my business and kept distracted that way.

Has anyone ever suddenly felt like dying again six weeks later? I thought after the third week Iwas getting better and able to work - concentrate on something besides the pain and emptiness. Suddenly, this weekend, I just feel like she's gotta be here with me as before or else I cannot function again. It's like the importance of life is gone. If she is not here, I'm in a pit and nothing can ever be right. Like I tried to function thru the loss and failed. Has anyone else thought they saw the light at the end of the tunnel and then suddenly it's gone. Just a dream that I could go on living. Suddenly, 6 weeks later I cannot go on like this unless distracted by a movie or by talking to people. Thought things would get easier, but instead it's suddenly worse.

Thanks for any input.

[AngelCareOne]

dearest kanecutter, plz excuse cuz i am typing with one finger on one hand. k? thnx. i do want to share after reading ur last post that i really do know exactly how ur feeling. honest and for true. here, i will copy and paste just a snippet from my very first post i made here at LS so you will see, dear one.

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"Won't you look down upon me, Jesus? Will you help me make a stand and just get me through another day? Yes, my body's aching and my time is at hand so I don't know how I'll make it any other way. You know I've seen fire and rain and sunny days that I thought would never end." Even though I'm alone, I've never in my life felt lonely until I lost you, Sweet Alex. I miss you so much!

You're the very best friend I've ever had both human and animal. I can still remember our simple conversations, your funny, mischievous little pranks, your laughter and your tears. I remember the last words you said to me over and over again as you kissed me loudly, "I Love You! I Love You! I Love You!" Alex, I Love You, Too!

I just always thought I'd see you at least one more time again ...

Please click below for video.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=-T35WXFOmwI

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kanecutter, in case u can not see videos, that is james taylor singing the song "fire and rain." you can google the lyrics at www.google.com if you've not heard the song before. it fits u so well, too.

plz keep coming back and talk as often as u are able. the more the better. it's by caring and sharing that we help each other through
this most gosh awful terrible devastating time. u are in my thoughts and prayers as i wing many more loving angels to u asap!

biggggg comforting hugs!!!

always,
dottie xoxoxox

ps. kanecutter, plz check these out, too. they are in the Pet Loss Support Resources and Articles area here at LS but i will give you direct links so u don't have to hunt them down. i hope and pray with all my heart that u find the comfort you need and so richly deserve as well as somehow to begin to find ways of coping ...

Your Fur Child Loss Devastation - You Are Not Going Insane - Emotions and Behavior Caused By Pet Loss

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=4893

'Light a Candle' Online - It Is Free - Please Read And I Send Love To All

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=4662

How To Heal When You Have Lost A Pet - Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) Healing Sessions

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=4814

more love and big hugs!!!!!