Death And Dying Pet Support, Anyone else like this after 6 weeks? Options

[kanecutter]

Since I work from home and own a pet sitting/dog walking business, my girl was with me 24/7 for the last 9 years. I fostered her, she was a very sad soul at first, neglected abused 1st 3 yrs of life. I ended up keeping her and loved her so much I wrapped my entire life around getting her out to run for hours each day and then when she became ill last Fall, all I did was work on keeping her happy, nothing else mattered.

I had to have her euthanized a little over a month ago. I wanted to die with her. It was the worse pain I have ever gone through in my life. During the first two weeks I literally could not stay in my own skin in the house alone...had to avoid the bone chilling absence of her presence. After the third week I began trying to rebuild my business and kept distracted that way.

Has anyone ever suddenly felt like dying again six weeks later? I thought after the third week Iwas getting better and able to work - concentrate on something besides the pain and emptiness. Suddenly, this weekend, I just feel like she's gotta be here with me as before or else I cannot function again. It's like the importance of life is gone. If she is not here, I'm in a pit and nothing can ever be right. Like I tried to function thru the loss and failed. Has anyone else thought they saw the light at the end of the tunnel and then suddenly it's gone. Just a dream that I could go on living. Suddenly, 6 weeks later I cannot go on like this unless distracted by a movie or by talking to people. Thought things would get easier, but instead it's suddenly worse.

Thanks for any input.

[kanecutter]

Sissycat and Beth: thank you so much for the encouragement. It really does help to have on line support. Beth, thanks for telling your story, it helps to see that I am not alone in this madness! I was beginning to really worry that I may continue to sink deeper and deeper. But there is hope that this will get better.

Sissycat, thanks for your interest in Bea's story. I will be so happy to share more.

[goliath]

But there is hope that this will get better.

Yes, there is definately hope. It takes lots of time and tears though that can't be rushed. You can only work through your grief because there is no way around it. As Sissycat said, telling stories of the times you spent with Bea will help the healing. Writing letters to Bea may be helpful for you as well and if you have pictures of her, we'd love to see them. I think for me the thing that helped the very most was coming to LS regularly. This gave me a place to come and write out all what I was going through and the more I came, the better I felt because I knew all the wonderful people here understood. We all walk this path together and lick each others wounds along the way.

Keep coming and sharing your sweet Bea with us.

Hugs of comfort and love,
Beth