I Lost My Best Friend Bun-bun.. Options

[george]

A few days ago we returned home after a few days to fine our family pet cat Bun-Bun having trouble breathing, we took her to the vet and quickly he said to put her down because of heart and lung problems. This pet was a family member for 17 yrs, a witness to the growth and development of our family, a family member who was alway there, always gave love alway sat quiet aside as we went on our daily duty's but was always there. I sweet face cat with a heart of gold. She touched our family so deeply and as left a hole in our lives. We regret doing what we did, maybe there was another way, maybe it was her time, maybe it did not have to happen. The entire family has been crying for 4 days, none of us can eat or sleep, or work, or go to school or work. We cant get over this. Maybe we made a mistake. I cant forgive myself for doing this to a family member. This was not our first pet or have we not been threw this type of thing before, it just happen so fast that I regret not giving it more time to develop. Our other pets all crying as much as the people in the family are. I cant bare to think of this as a mistake. I have tried to seek help for grief counseling but have not been able to find any.I am so pissed off at the vet and myself for jumping the gun. I don't know what to do..I failed my family. SOB why wasn't I given more time to think about this. Why can I have that day to do over ?

[george]

It has been over three weeks now and it is getting a little better coping with our lost. Today the remains of our Bun-Bun can home to us from the vet. Our other cat (Maggie) has been crying for her all the time, she is also having problems eating and sleeping but today when Bun-Bun came back home she starting playing with her toys, she had not touched then sense that day. It seemed to be a "whole" home again when Bun-Bun came back today. Her spirit has reentered our life's and we are all together again. we fell better now that she is home with us. We are grateful knowing that she is no longer in pain and is in a better place now. But her spirit will always be with us.
I am grateful of all my friends on Lighting Strike who knew the pain I was going thru. We all have a common bond of emptiness .We all have lost our little loved ones.
It's comforting knowing that there are souls who struggle after losing there furry friends but still can extend kindness to others. I appreciate all my friends here who helped me through this difficult time.
I wish you all peace and my God bless you all..

George