The Loss Of My Farley Bear Options

[Farleybear]

I am new here and I hope this MB can help me get over my loss. I lost my beautiful english bulldog of 10 years two weeks ago. I am still suffering from this loss and still find it very difficult to talk about him.

Farley was diagnosed with heart disease a number of months ago and went in to congestive heart failure on February 1st. My fiance and I had to make the hardest decision of our life but realized that it was the kindest thing to do in the end. It was the hardest thing that we have ever had to do and continues to be. He passed away at around 630pm.. We love him very much and he is still so missed. Farley lived and long and wonderful life and he knew how loved he was. I know that he felt that love until the very end.

I need help moving on. We have decided to get a new puppy as our wedding gift to each other after our honeymoon, which will be at the end of June, but until then I need help getting over this loss.

I got Farley at 8 weeks old and he hasn't spent a night away from me in over 10 years. He came everywhere with me and that his presence is missing just killing me.

I need to know what to do in order to stop missing him so much and to make the heartache hurt less.

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[Farleybear]

This weekend was extremely difficult for me. I had a dream about Farley, that he came to visit me. He looked so good. He was young again and so happy to see me. We played and I petted him and we laid down together as well. It was so nice but when I woke up, it broke my heart because my dream was so real. It made me happy that he is doing well and looking like his old self, but it made me miss him like I lost him yesterday. Then on Sunday at my grandfather's bday party, my cousin-in-law put together a slide show and there was a picture of my Farley with Grandpa. It is an awesome picture but I wasn't expecting it and I just started to bawl. This loss is taking its toll on me and I just want to hurry up and stop hurting. I want to be able to miss him without crying. Why does this have to be so hard?